To not understand why I've gone from one extreme to the other?

[Crawling]

I have in the past been anorexic my lowest weight being 6 stone. I got over this and spent many years being a stable 9 stone but for the past year I've been binge eating and I've gone up to 11 stone.

I don't understand it used to be so easy to go without food now it's impossible. I hate the way I look and every time I eat I hate myself so why can't I stop?

It's not uncommon to do this

Why not ask for this thread to get moved to mental health? You will get more answers from people with experience

I'm almost exactly the same. Was anorexic, then binge ate and restricted and ballooned out.

I was fine (very strict calorie counting) for a few years then I got pregnant.

I ate sensibly but a lot while I was pregnant and put on a few extra stone which I can't loose. I just seem to be eating crap all the time. Like you I used to find it so easy on an apple and a cheese sandwich a day. Not a day without a biscuit seems a challenge. I hate it

Did you ever actually get support and deal with why you had issues with food. It sounds like you didn't and that your issues with food, and therefore the emotional stuff under that, are still there.

I used to work in addictions and saw people 'transfer' their addictive behaviour all the time. The underlying emotional issues were the issue, whether they were drinking, exercising, playing video games or getting into religion. All of it came from the same place.

Mrsterrypratchet I have had therapy but I still have a lot of emotional scars from childhood.

Pumpkinkitty it's so horrid isn't it yet the more I eat the more I hate myself the more I eat.

Sorry Crawling Do you think more therapy would help?

I don't know tbh it might help me I certainly never went into detail about my relationship with food so I suppose it might help.

If you are that miserable about how you eat I'd go for counselling. get to the root and it shouldn't jump out and hit you again.xx