I have had anxiety and OCD for years, an I am the first to admit I overreact and overthink things, so if I am being unreasonable please say so, I know you don't hold back :o
I would like to be a Teaching Assistant, and currently work weekends in retail. I have done some volunteering and am starting an online course.
I applied for a temporary lunchtime supervisor at school and started this week.
The trouble is although the money is handy at this time of year and its experience, it means I can't do my other reading volunteering in another school I was doing as I don't have time to travel there and back now, and I can't do some other volunteering in the community which I enjoyed, and I can't do any extra hours in my retail role at this busy time of year.
I feel I have made the wrong choice, and am annoyed with myself as I think I could have had more opportunities and still earned extra money by doing the other things, but OH thought the guaranteed money would be better and I felt I had no choice but to apply.
I mentioned today that I feel I should have stuck at what I was doing originally as I feel I enjoyed it more, and the lunchtime role isn't helping my anxiety as I don't know what I am doing, I have been asking, and even asked for the paperwork I need to fill in and for policies for behaviour etc but I have had nothing yet after asking more than once. I've just been left to get on with it, which is ok and I know I should just get on with it, but I'm really not happy :(
OH just said well that's what working in a school is like, get on with it.
I just would have liked a discussion about what to do, and talk about how I feel rather than be told that.
I'm being unreasonably aren't I? I just need to get on with it and accept I made the wrong choice?