To wonder why I even bother?

[OhWhyEvenBother]

Honestly, what is the point in life?

My job is unbelievably stressful, I cannot move in the office without someone coming to me a problem. I work from 7am until Midnight to keep up with work. I work most weekends too.

I've just been slammed with another car fault (which could potentially cost thousands) this is 3 weeks after spending £1000, 2 weeks before that I spent £260 on new brakes the week before that was £250 on new tyres.

At the end of the month I have £6000 of savings to pay out.

I'm having heart palpitations because I'm so stressed, honestly what the fuck is the point in life?! I really do not know!

If the end result is death, why not just skip there now, this is all a waste of time and effort?!

I'm so bloody fed up of this continual uphill struggle.

AIBU to just think death is the easier option? Is it unreasonable to just say 'I give up, I can't do this anymore'?

Is it really worth it?! I do not think so.

I know you say you enjoy your work, is there another company you can work for that might be better in terms of the environment and pressure? Can you work for yourself? If the reality is that doing that type of work is always going to mean this level of responsibility and hours

Yes. It's a fact of the role I do, it's industry wide. I'd have to retrain, which isn't an option at moment.

The ££ is good and the role I do is a really sought after position (I've worked in the industry for 10 years and took a huge pay cut to take this job) it's actually a really good company to work for, I've worked for really nasty companies before so I do have an idea about how bad it can be.

It's just a hell of a lot of work at the minute.

Oh why. You are me 6 years ago. Like you I felt if I took time off it would just make it worse. I ended up being so stressed I was having numerous panic attacks at the slightest thing.

I was unable to function. I couldn't drive without risking ceasing. I couldn't use public transport. I couldn't even use the toilets at work as I got claustrophobic.

In the end the decision to stop work was forced on me as I couldn't force myself onto the train. I had 6 months off work.

You have to either get signed off to get some perspective or just tell your line manager that in future you will only work say 8 till 7. This is enough of a commitment for anyone.

Errors will be made and you will fix them but you still leave at 7. At the end of the day there will still be less issues than if you are incapable of working for six months.

Your line manager has to find you more resources or live with the consequences. This is her job and she has to do it. She won't do this unless you force the issue.

You owe this to yourself, your husband and the company. You cannot keep this up and unless you force it it will not get better.

Now that I am through that horrible period I realize that I should have forced the issue before I made myself. So ill I was useless touself and work.

Please see your GP tomorrow.

I am glad you came back and responded again. I still think you sound overwhelmed though, and I do hope you tried to see your GP.

You sound under-resourced at work. Could you not persuade your employer to take on a trainee to help you? I guess it would be extra work training them up to the right standard at first, but longer term it would help you and you would be happier??

I've decided to take the next week off work as annual leave. I need some guilt free time away, DH has demanded it he had the week off anyway so hopefully we can do something to help me bring myself back to a more 'normal' again.

Topseyt I've asked for a 6 month temp to help out just while its busy (as my assistant has been lent to another team) my boss fought my corner but his boss refused "There isn't a budget" needless to say I was pretty pissed off at that.

Sorry that was meant to say "DH demanded it as he had the week...."