To not want to wake up tomorrow?

[AnotherStatistic21]

Blunt, to the point, don't beat around the bush advice please.

1. My daughter is poorly again. I know; children catch flu/virus'/coughs & colds and everything in between. I just feel really bad for her that she hasn't got the energy to play with the millions of toys around her and can only watch the television or read books. She had meningitis last year and hasn't ever really recovered from it.
2. Same horrible colleague at work keeps putting in benefit fraud referrals about me.
3. Now HB has stopped and I'm £40 pw down (again) until its been investiagted and quashed (again). Takes about 4 weeks to be sorted out apparently (although last time took six - fingers crossed this time will be quicker)
4. Now tax credits have been stopped and I'm £90 pw down (again) until its been investigated and quashed (again). (They told me will take 3 weeks - not holding out any hope tho :-/)
5. As a consequence; Can't pay childcare as have to pay rent. Had to cancel standing orders on both credit cards at the weekend as havent got enough money for shopping. Got £15 until Saturday, need petrol but also need nappies and wipes (have £7 worth of boots points tho - YAY!) Also need toothpaste (dammit).
6. Due to nature of my job (Government) my manager is threatening dismissal because of constant fraud accusations. She and other senior managers are treating me really unfairly (would list all the reasons but would be here until possibly mid October) since this has been going on. For the first 4 weeks I went in every day and did my job, working next to the woman that was doing this to me (I shouldn't know it was her, but I do and I don't feel bad that I do or how I got the information to be fair) but have been signed off of work for 3 weeks now and have just returned to the GP to get signed of for another 2. The guilt of letting a genuinely lovely team down by being off sick is really hurting me but being at work for them four weeks was killing me and I couldn't take any more.
7. I now stand to lose my job and basically my life.
8. I have applied for 16 other jobs, turned down for 7, interviewed for 2 and didnt get them and still waiting on thr others. loads of full time jobs on the market but part time ones are surprisingly more difficult to come by. I am literally up for any type if role and trying not to get down about being rejected but it's hard not to cry when so much other stuff is going on and so much counts on the bloody outcome.

It sounds heartless but I really do not want to wake up tomorrow. Arghh I do want to for my daughter but all I'm doing is letting her down. I'm a single parent, bit of a loner and family are no where to be seen. Help me..someone?

Overwhelmed by all of the help you guys have given. So informative and helpful, thank you :-)
I need you beside me when I next go into work (I would love to turn up with you all by my side!)
Unfortunately, I have to be a big girl a sort this absolute mess out on my own.
You've made me realise how wrong it actually is that so many people have been informed about this stupid woman's obsession with getting me sacked, and how serious this is. I am being harassed and it's not me just going crazy and this needs to end - now. I can't just keep letting her do this.
I've got an appointment with CAB on 11/09 to speak with someone about it all (hopefully a bit more helpful than the person I spoke to making the appointment :-/)
I am with GMB, I have spoken to my rep (before i left work) but they are new to the post and I know everyone has to start somewhere but left the office feeling as confused as when i went in. So going to contact the head office asap and see if there is another rep I could see.
Will keep you updated (not that you probably care all that much but makes me feel a bit better writing it down rather than whittling away to myself :-) )

Thanks again

I do hope that CAB is able to help you. I don't have anything to add that hasn't been already said, but I do know that the only reason you are not getting those jobs now is because of this situation and the pressure that it is putting you under. I've felt like you - entirely different reasons, and I've wanted to not wake up, to end it all. All I can say is that you need to make sure you get help, proper help from your GP. Not just anti-depressants, you need to be able to talk to someone in a safe environment. The best, only, advice I was given at that point was to take it one hour at a time. Find joy in your little girl. Get better. Get referred to a food bank if you need it. Life will get better, even though it might not feel that way. Love and hugs to you both xxxx

I would the rumour mentioned that they are investigating the 'reporter' unless she retracts. Maybe this situation would go away quicker?
Admiral has made you a very kind and generous offer btw.

I would spread the rumour

Just read this whole thread. What a horrible situation for you. I'm pleased that the thread has helped you see how awful it is. And I'm glad that you are going to try and stop this.

I wish you luck in getting this all sorted.

Stay strong. I agree with footface, harassment must be investigated, they have to protect you. I left a good well paid job because of a psychopath in my dept. I felt pushed into a corner but stepping away I realised my life was so much bigger than the nonsense that was consuming me. You have your beautiful little dd. Get professional advice from CAB or turn tables on her with a police report.