To just go and sit in A&E tonight.

[Buddhagirl]

I have a long and complicated history of MH problems. I have been well for about 5 years, graduated got a job, got married, etc.

Occasionally I have times when I suffer so much I want to die. They don't last long (1-2 days).

I asked my husband to give me a cuddle, I was crying so much, but he just sighed and then turned his back on me. My mum is lovely but I can't go to her as she would worry so and I don't need to feel like a burden right now.

I have no one I can call.

I can't even get out of this bedroom we use as a living room for a drink because I can't face a conversation with my inlaws.

At this point A&E on a Friday night even sounds more comforting than feeling trapped in this tiny room in someone else's house that's dirty because I've been lazy the last 2 days.

[mumthetaxidriver]

Unfortunately many men don't know how to respond when their partners are upset. My own DH is wonderful in many ways but struggles with this kind of support. Your situation sounds very stresfull - I do think you should spend some time with your mum. You can do this without worrying her - just say you need a change of scene. I'm sure she' ll understand.