I really do think things are looking up.
I have just sat and read a few threads about people moaning about thier DP's, about having to do everything, about struggling with the kids, and I just wanted to say that things can get better!
Things have been far from easy in the last few years, my P left just after Christmas nearly 3 years ago. When he left, I had finally recognised him as the abusive arse that he is, his treatment of my DS had got worse and worse as he reached his teens, and I couldn't see a way out, but also I saw the reality of his treatment of me.
Since then he has made false accusations against my son to both police and SW on more than one occasion, he has walked off with £35k of my money, he refused to return our DD's after a contact visit and I had to take him to court to get them back, at every single opportunity he has attempted to turn DD's against me and DS, and repeatedly questioned my parenting, including reporting me to SW on more than one occasion. And this is only the major stuff.
However, I have just had a lovely meal with DS's old WA children's worker and her husband, we are now friends, we all sat together, chatted and laughed and drank tea. DS is still in school, studying for exams. DD's are well supported by WA and school, they are happy and loved. SW and my HV have been and continue to be amazingly supportive. I am looking at being able to finally finish the work on the house this year (9 years and counting). I am about to start studying year 3 of a degree in a field that I love. My car passed its MOT and my veggie garden is growing!
I have been single since he left, I do everything (well DS helps a wee bit) I manage all my own finances, I do most of the cooking and the cleaning, helping with homework, bedtime routines, running kids to clubs, fixing things that break.... Sometimes it feels overwhelming, but right at this moment I have to say that I haven't felt this happy and content in bloody years.