to be so ducking angry with people i am supposed to love?

[MadEyeMoodyBitch]

The past few days I feel angry all the time.

I actually feel like I am going a little bit crazy because it's making me second guess my every emotion and feeling.

For example I am angry with dh because he got to sleep a full night AND have a five hour nap after getting the d&v bug I had the previous day... No, I did not get either of those things; I got to breastfeed through the night in between vomits and then had a 2 hour nap that I had to beg for because dh wasn't sure he could cope with both kids.

I am also angry with my toddler for biting, tantrumming, coughing deliberately on the baby.... You name it.

And i am angry with my 2 month old for crying too much! Ffs I know that at least is unreasonable!

I just hate myself for being so angry especially when I read some of the posts from people who have a much harder situation and are being really strong and uncomplaining.

To put it in context - I am sahm to 2 year old and 2 month old, dh works but we have all been home sick for the past few days we are not in UK by the way.

I guess it's not really an aibu but an aibn? am I being normal or is this a naice overreaction

Massive overreaction! Not naice.

I think you sound totally normal in the circumstances! Lack of sleep is used for torture, Can you calmly explain to your ( not so) dh that you need a break and work out how he can manage the kids so you can get one?

A normal reaction for someone who is ill and hasn't had enough sleep. I really struggle to control my emotions when I'm tired, and looking after a newborn is HARD even without the toddler and the d&v.

You know it's not right to be angry with the DCs though.It sounds like you really need a break from them, and a chance to catch up on sleep. Is there anyone else who can help?

You also need to have a serious chat with your DH. He needs to step up and take equal responsibility- no begging for a nap because he might not be able to cope. Once you're all feeling better I would start to arrange a regular time for him to have the two DCs while you have some time to yourself.

I'd be fucked of with dh over the sleep issue, yanbu there

Thank you.We do have help, someone who can take the toddler for a half day a couple of times a week, but they're out of town for the next month.

Dh thinks he does his fair share and I wonder if it's just sleep deprivation making me think he doesn't. I feel awful asking him to do more when he's sick though. The thing that he doesn't see is that the choices he makes when he's well impact me. For example staying up later than me by two or three hours while I go to bed ridiculously early because it's the only way to ensure a bit of rest - he says he needs the wind down time but I feel like that's two hours of my life he's stolen from me because I would have enjoyed staying up a bit if I knew I could count on him to be 100% in the morning - and then when he does get sick he's less resilient because he hadn't been taking care of himself - he does do a lot when needed but he doesn't think ahead or take the initiative to make life easier iyswim.

Sorry for the ramble, thanks for letting me vent.