Running on empty.

[ParisianTrialByFire]

I just can't do it anymore. I can't remember what it feels like to have enough sleep, or the last time I woke up naturally. If I have time to myself it's spent catching up with everything I can't do with DS there. If DP has a weekend off I'm still working flat out because he wants to catch up with his friends. We haven't had a date night in months.

He takes forever to do anything I ask, thinks it's funny to say no when he actually will. I never know if he's joking. He's currently being an arse about making me a cup of tea, has decided to watch NCIS and faff about tidying the living room instead. We have to go to his parents for his sister's birthday meal, and I feel like crap, but he's not being at all helpful.

On top of this, I've been doing slimming world because I wanted to finally lose the baby weight before I get married. I seem to have hit my natural weight, haven't lost or gained for six weeks, but my grandmother insists I could lose another half stone. I've never felt healthier, but apparently I'm still too big.

I'm just tired of living to everyone else's expectations. Tired of having to do everything myself. Tired of never having a minute to just sit and be.

Sorry, that turned out longer than I expected. Feel a bit better now I've written it though.

Forgot my AIBU - AIBU to feel like this, and to just tell everyone to sod off for a week and leave me alone?

Yanbu. Tell dp to stop being an arse!

I sympathise - is your DP the sort of person you could sit down with and explain how you feel? Try it when you are both calm, and make him listen. If not, you are just going to have to take your 'me-time', as god knows, no-one is going to offer it to you, sadly.

Do you have to go to the sister's meal? Could he go and take your DS, so that you can relax and have a nice bath etc? Fake a stomach ache or something - not a long term solution, I know, but at least it might buy you a little bit of breathing space.

As for your grandmother, ignore her. If you feel healthy, you couldn't wish for more - anything else is her issue, not yours.

Dh sounds like he needs to step up.

He should be spending time with you not out with his mates instead of you.

As for saying no just to wind you up, tell him to grow up and stop being a prat.

I remember feeling like this although I didn't have the weight thing because when I'm stressed I never eat anything and was skin and bone. It took a full blown keblammo moment where I was kicking and screaming and knocking furniture over to make DH see I was seriously needing a break.

I do have to go to the birthday meal, in itself it isn't a problem (plus MIL is an amazing cook). It's just that I don't want to do anything. Just want a week at home, alone, so I can recharge.

Have explained to DP, but he just tells me I need to chill out. I already know that!