I have 4 dc's, the oldest is starting secondary school in September, the youngest is starting primary. I was 21 when I had dc 1 and have spent the last 11 years as a SAHM. This was totally my choice and I dont regret that at all..
I have spent the years volunteering in different ways but mainly running a toddler group and helping out at the school while dc 4 has been in nursery and I have enjoyed this immensly.
However- over the summer holidays a sense of redundancy, lack of achievement, unemployability (is that even a word?) Has crept in and I am beginning to feel a little bit miserable.
Dh has gone from being in the forces (and gaining qualifications), to becoming a youth worker and gaining more qualifications. He is one of those people who could turn his hand to anything and could get a job anywhere. He also has hobbies and interests (too many really he just doesn't have time for them).
I on the other hand have nothing- i've spent the last 11 years devoted to my kids, have really had no hobbies in this time other than my volunteering and i've lost any skills/confidence I ever gained from my education.
I feel totally unemployable - and even if that were not the case dh's job means he works some mornings, some afternoons and some evenings. So all over the shop really. I could never fit in a job around that.
I am starting to feel a bit resentful of dh and all the opportunities he has had, and I know that's not right.
I just dont know what to do with my life at the moment - I am starting a job as a lunchtime supervisor at the school in September (1hour a day). I would love to be a T.A there as I love volunteering with the children.
I just feel a bit redundant and empty really. Do I need to pull myself together? Is it natural to feel like this when the last dc goes to school or am I just being whiney!
I was actually crying over this earlier and I know there are far more pressing things I could be worried about.
Someone come and tell me i'm not the only one going through this please.