To not want to be on my own on my birthday?

[CajaDeLaMemoria]

It's always been a bit of an emotional day, because of my childhood.

This year it appears I'll be completely alone, and I'm dreading it :(

That does sound bloody grim for you. Is there anything you can do to change it?

I know it's really hard to do, but could you decide to make your birthday a day you want to have on your own, so you're not letting your old memories drain the life out of what should be a celebratory day for you?

Maybe think of somewhere you'd like to go - cinema, museum, beach etc, or things you want to do - have a lie in, watch a DVD, have a long soak in the bath, eat nice microwave meal / get a takeaway, and do it all, so you have a day spoiling yourself without anyone else saying "but I want to do X instead"?

Is your birthday today? It is a beautiful day so take yourself off out somewhere nice

No, it's over the weekend.

Before DP, I didn't celebrate birthdays. My parents only did birthdays and Christmas for the youngest sibling.

DP made it special. He made it his aim to show me how special people feel on their birthdays, and has honestly made me enjoy them.

Last year he had a business trip and had to be away, but I visited the in-laws until he got back and we all went out together.

This year he volunteered for something that he had to leave for yesterday, and is supposed to return on Tuesday morning. It's a group thing, and it was originally supposed to end today, so I suppose he didn't do it on purpose. It feels very odd to know that I won't see anyone, though.

Maybe I should plan something now. I wondered if I should just ignore it, and was being precious, but I feel a little better that my reaction isn't totally bizarre. Thank you all.