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AIBU?

Share your dilemmas and get honest opinions from other Mumsnetters.

To just want a break after whats just happened ?

20 replies

crazyhamsterdisguisedasahippo · 21/06/2013 23:43

I have had the year from hell !

Ds 4.5 behaviour is at an all time low & have been told he has ADHD/ASD/OCD & he never sleeps .
Dp has been in and out of work so barely managing .
My mum has been in hospital ill this week with a severe kidney infection & they sent her home even though she is no better Angry

Anyway i have not had 2 minutes to myself all week as i have been running round like a headless chicken after everybody else .

I realised at the beginning of the week i was pregnant , had morning sickness for the past three weeks i just didnt dare believe it incase something bad happened , confirmed it with a test first thing yesterday & then i miscarried at around dinner time today , i must of only been 6 weeks at the most .
What's prompted me to ask whether iabu is as soon as i new what had happened i told Dp & since then he has bn in a right mood with me , barely acknowledging me & not even asking how i am .
Its not sunk in yet , i just want dp to ask how i am , an hour after it happened i had to go food shopping coz it couldn't possibly wait until tomorrow Confused

Sorry for rambling Blush

Iabu to want to be acknowledged?

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sandwichyear · 21/06/2013 23:45

of course YANBU. So sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. Hope someone comes along soon with some wiser words than mine.

HerrenaHarridan · 21/06/2013 23:50

It never rains etc!

Ffs! Sounds like the only sensible course of action is a bath. Preferably with tea or wine and a locked door.

It's not a magic cure but it will ease your physical symptoms and give you some peace and space.

Littleballofhate · 21/06/2013 23:52

what an absolutely wretched time you have had. YANBU! If you have just suffered a miscarriage you most certainly need some rest. Please take care of yourself..xx

Coconutty · 21/06/2013 23:54

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Littleballofhate · 21/06/2013 23:54

Btw..is is possible your dh is having a shock himself at the news? No excuse for him not caring for you, but maybe might explain his abrupt behaviour?

Cherriesarelovely · 21/06/2013 23:57

What a horrible, stressful time you are having. No wonder you crave some space and a break. Of course yanbu, really hope things get easier soon.

YoniBottsBumgina · 21/06/2013 23:57

That's awful :( I'm so sorry.

Is DP upset do you think (ie reacting irrationally because he doesn't know how to cope) or is he being an arse? I suppose both aren't mutually exclusive...

lessonsintightropes · 21/06/2013 23:58

This sounds like a really, really shit year. I am sorry - YANBU at all, sounds like you need a hug, a glass of wine and some time/space to process it all, and by all accounts your DP too - obviously I don't know you or him and what your relationship is like, but could he be in shock too? It sounds like you could both do with having a heartfelt and open conversation about it but immediately right now probably not ideal, bath sounds like a nice first thing. Thinking of you, hope things get better bit by bit.

crazyhamsterdisguisedasahippo · 22/06/2013 00:03

Thanks everybody

It could be shock tbh , he is not usually like this , will try talking to him in the week

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peppapigmustdie · 22/06/2013 00:07

Of course yanbu, you have had a traumatic time and a little bit of akkn

SunshineBossaNova · 22/06/2013 00:09

YANBU and hugs flowers

peppapigmustdie · 22/06/2013 00:14

acknowledgement towards the awful things that have happened.
Please try and tell your dh how you feel, his behaviour is strange.
Maybe he feels if the Mc is discussed it could open the flood gates if you have been strong through everything else.

SunshineBossaNova · 22/06/2013 00:44

Sorry, I didn't mean to do weird linky. I meant Flowers

aldiwhore · 22/06/2013 01:04

YANBU.

Sometimes, when life seems tough, bad news, sad news, gets sponged up with all the rest of the torment. I speak of course from your DH's point of view, even though I don't think YABU at all.

My DH broke down the other day when his dad got taken into care. I love my DH dearly (completely goofy about him) and I adore my FIL (he's my other dad and friend). I just stared at DH when he told me what was happening, I possibly even shrugged.

It's not like me, I DO care, it's fucking awful (probably nowhere near how you feel) but I just shrugged. I SHRUGGED. I made the packed lunches for the boys, I loaded the dishwasher, I FLICKED through the channels of the TV, made inane conversation, never once acknowledging my DH's pain. I felt ROTTEN about it, but there was a mental block.. perhaps your DH is in that place?

I also broke down when everyone was safely asleep. I have also had a semi-awkward discussion with DH, who is hurt by my uncharacteristic behaviour (I'm the dramatic emotional open one usually). I suspect I am experiencing self preservation, I suspect I will explode/implode at some point, but I'm just carrying on at present.

YANBU to feel hurt and alone and gutted that you have not got the reaction you need right now, YANBU at all.

But I guess from current experience, your DH (if otherwise lovely) is in the same place as me, all I can describe it as is shut down. There's no excuse I know, no comfort in it but I suspect he is probably functioning and processing the data. I know that's no help to you now. I'm not much help to my DH, everything feels insincere!

I am so sorry for your loss and that you feel so alone, but please don't think your DH doesn't care. I don't think there's such a thing as emotional priority when you're emotionally knackered, sometimes the smallest thing can open the floodgates, sometimes the biggest gets no reaction at all! Hang in there.

I am the most cuddly, fluffy, huggy, twatty bloody emotional paramedic (not an actual one) but at present I'm just numb, it doesn't mean I don't care.

Sorry for long post.. I may have got it wrong, but it's worth a shot, because I WISH I could feel what I should feel right now about my FIL, I wish I could be there for my DH, but I just feel numb... so if there's a chance your DH is in this place, please please forgive, give him time.

If he doesn't acknowledge it soon, shout. Loudly, and force reaction. I hope my DH gives me a virtual shake soon. Not sure if that makes sense?

Apileofballyhoo · 22/06/2013 01:17

Sorry you're having such an awful time OP.

crazyhamsterdisguisedasahippo · 22/06/2013 11:06

Thankyou so much Aldi

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Shellywelly1973 · 22/06/2013 11:11

How are you doing today Op?

You've had a tough time. It sounds like lots of people are reliant on you. Look after yourself, i know its easier said then done.

Take care. x

Mumsyblouse · 22/06/2013 11:14

You poor thing, what an awful time, I don't know why your husband is being like this except he sounds very stressed too (given you say he is not normally like this). I hope you can come together and talk it through, perhaps have a bit of a cry, it's really very sad and difficult for both of you. Hope you are ok.

KatieScarlett2833 · 22/06/2013 11:15

I do that too Aldi. And the second everything calms down and I've time to think the meltdown starts.

crazyhamsterdisguisedasahippo · 22/06/2013 12:08

shelly feeling a bit groggy , still not had chance to talk it through
Thanks for asking

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