SAHM to full time WOHM 'career' job. Got to make a decision.

[ArabellaBeaumaris]

Background - had DD1 when I was 24, hadn't started a 'career' yet as been travelling/doing a MA. Stayed at home for the next 5 years, had another child. DC are now 5 in reception & nearly 2.

I applied for a grad scheme & something has gone wrong in their assessments I have been offered a job. It's about a 1.5 hr commute on public transport, min 1hr in the car. DP would go part time for the first year. He is looking forward to this.

I should feel excited but I feel sick. Suddenly sad at the idea of the end of stay at home mum-ing, playgroups, mooching around the park, all the usual. Afraid that they will find me out as I won't be any good! Worried that the commute is going to make it really hard & I won't see my kids during the week.

I definitely want to go back to work & it makes so much sense to go with this opportunity (except the commute). Talk some sense into me?

Congratulations!
I normally (currently on mat leave with DC2) commute 1 hour each way do an average 50 hour week as main household earner. DH works part time and does the childcare & housework. It works really well for us. DD gets to spend proper time with her dad, far more than er friends, & when I'm not at work Imake sure to spend proper quality time with DD. My only SAHM periods have been my mat leave but TBH by 9 months I was bored, craving the challenges of work.
Go for it. Good luck.