To have burst into tears?

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I realise I'm being an idiot, but I'm feeling rubbish and today has broken me.

I've had tonsillitis all week, felt like shit and have zero energy. Trying to do the normal school runs plus working and packing for next week (camping holiday) has worn me out.

Just picked DD1 up from school and she decided to act up. I told her if she continued behaving badly I wouldn't give her any more holiday money (she's been earning 1 euro a day if she has good behaviour) . She then spat at me and screamed 'I hate you' in my face. I just burst into tears. She is only 5.

DH has told me I'm being stupid, she doesn't mean it, but for some reason it has really knocked me hearing those words. I expect I'm being oversensitive from being ill

I know DD1 was upset to see me cry, I didn't do it with the intention of making her feel guilty but just because I cracked. Once we got over the horrible argument we were fine.

DH just bought me ice-cream for my throat and told me he's taking Friday off to sort the car out for the holiday, which is a massive load off. I've told him how upset I was and that I don't think he helped. He was surprised and apologised if he upset me. He's not the best at thinking before he speaks, but he genuinely meant no harm.

Going to bed now, hoping the penicillin does it's thing soon.

Well done OP at least you got your apology and an ice-cream! Hope you feel better soon. When this is all over think again about your discipline methods, I'm not really sure that withholding holiday money is the best way to deal with your DD saying she hates you. My DD has done this 'I hate you, I wish you were not my mummy! I wish Milly's mummy was my mummy she's nicer than you!' and I talked through with her to get her to understand what these words really mean. Not sure she understood tbh but I think they should understand why some things should not be said.

With regards to your tonsils, firstly definitely get the hydrogen peroxide from the chemist to dilute and gargle, it's what they gave me in hospital when I had tonsillitis and an abscess. Secondly push your GP in my experience it's them who don't want to refer rather than ENT consultants not wanting to remove tonsils. I would put good money on you getting them out if you were seen by an ent.

I hadn't suffered regularly with tonsillitis then one year it just started up and I got it three times in 6 months and the third time I also had a quinsy (abscess) which I had to go to hospital to have treated. The ENT came by on the morning rounds and after 2 mins said "right we might as well get them taken out don't want to see you back here again". He didn't give a tinkers toss that I hadn't been suffering endlessly for years.

It's a crappy OP but so very worth it. Keep pushing your GP or get a second opinion.

Push for a referral, it's the ENT drs job to decide not the GP!

Had mine removed in my 40's as I had chronic inflammation and a lump on one of them. 2 weeks pain has given me years of relief