to feel utterly bereft.

[pamplem0usse]

I had postnatal depression.
My baby has been quite poorly sice birth (now 7mo); I also have a 2,7yo.
My DH.is back.in work tomorrow after a long holiday.
I have no idea how I'm going to cope. my health visitor was supposed to be supporting me but disappeared three months ago.
My ds has now been diagnosed with a long term condition with significant day to day implications.
The diagnostic procedure he required needed him to starve (no foodbor milk for 36 hours). Noone told me before arriving at hospital. I just held him while he cried and my breasts leaked.
My 2 yo gets stuck.in front of a film once a day. Its the only way i can cope. im a useless mother.

Big hugs, don't be so hard on yourself. We all feel like terrible mothers sometimes, I started a thread myself this morning as I was sat here in tears feeling terrible. The trick is to get some perspective and that is sometimes difficult when you feel low and guilty. Nothing in your post suggests poor parental skills, you really sound like you care. A bit of tv will not hurt your toddler, two are a handful for anybody. Just make sure you get the support you need from your healthcare providers and your partner, and the lovely ladies on mumsnet are always here to listen and advise too.

Hope you had a better afternoon pample. DS's lunch sounds fine to me x