Short backstory:
I had fertility treatment for dc1, immediately conceived naturally with dc2, had/have pre and post natal depression with both. Dh has had a vasectomy plus the all clear.
We have literally had sex twice this year. My periods are regular as clockwork and I'm 7 days late.
I have taken two tests both negative but all the symptoms match previous pregnancies : low level cramping, sheer exhaustion, crying although very pnd so cry all the time anyway! Can't stop eating and drinking, skin changes, heavy discharge (sorry tmi)
We don't want another baby. I can barely cope with the ones we have now. I just can't imagine termination, now I know my own children it seems barbaric. But my pregnancies were sheer hell physically, emotionally and mentally and I still suffer every day with the aftermath. I don't know what to do, please help.
I can't discuss irl in case I do go with the termination.