aibu to think my friend has not got hints about my feelings?

[japonicabumsplatt]

This may well turn into a forest fire but I am going to try anyway to navigate this without alienating too many people.
A woman I have known for about 5 years now who has a DS1 the same age as my DD2. She also has a 2 year old. She is a few years older than me and no2 is likely her last.
I had a hysterectomy when DD2 was 3. Though the far side of 30 , I knew no more pregnancies were viable. Got on with things, though internally I can feel bereft from time to time. The what ifs of it but don't really bring to conversations, it is what it is. Nothing can be changed but I am experiencing a sadness in a way.

Woman is very involved in breast feeding stuff. Recently it has gotten all consuming for her. She shows me photos of her and friends breast feeding or she is feeding DD2 in the middle of the playground, walking down the road. It seems an endless activity as well as constantly discussing how much he loves it, how much they love falling asleep with him feeding. It is begining to feel painful in a clumsy way. I have been on the point of telling her but feel that it would sound like bitterness and I am sure there are those here who will say the same. Despite showing no interest whatsoever when she starts on the subject, she doesn't seem to be getting my silence or blank face. There is nothing we have in common anymore and it feels so one sided.
Do I tell her? Am I simply jealous? Do I remain shutted up?

Oh God. YANBU

Can you not just blank her?

I know two people like this, breastfeeding as a sport. I just avoid.

Oh how these threads change.

I was glad to read that most responses were that YANBU. In my opinion you are not either.

Breastfeeding, even if (like me) you have done 6 yrs of it, becomes rather uninteresting after one stops. Your friend is a bore, I think remembering that while she preaches will help you stay calm.

I'd also (by now) be tempted to tell her its boring.

Its bound to be another stab at your heart when she goes on, she should give it a rest.

extreme breast feeding. scarlet I am wondering when she will want it in the olympics.

Breastfeeding is an important thing that we should all value. but for the love of god, please, try to imagine there are others in the world for whom the subject is tiresome. it might also make you sound like you have gone gently round the bend.
it will be bring a mirror to look at your fanny party next.

japonica, what is it you want here then? Either you speak to your friend about how much she's annoying you or you cut her out of your life. You don't seem bothered about saving the friendship tbh.

Why not start telling her about the history of toilet roll every time you see her. Every time she stirs the conversation away from toilet roll,quickly divert it back.

I agree with babanouche.

When people suggest talking to her you have said "yes, but...."

If you talk to her and she is still oblivious, 6then^ I'd back away, but she isn't a mind-reader.

Either that or you decide she's so irritating nit is not even worth it.

Out of interest, why did you think you'd alienate people, as you say in your OP?

she's not even worth it

Flame her!

Tell her if you had another you would ff because (make some shit up) and waych her go off like a rocket.

If she is leading the local breastfeeding group, then at the moment it is a big part of her life and she probably wants to talk about it.
Fair enough -you find it boring. But I think you have to accept that not everyone would be sensitive to the fact that this may also be a difficult subject for you, in addition to a tedious one.
If you value the friendship, spell it out to her. Give her the chance to adapt.

TBH I would feel the same and I haven't had a hysterectomy.
She sounds boring and irritating and I would find it difficult to be around her.
I actually wouldn't say anything unless you want her to gush a load of 'oh poor you, blah blah' at you.
Keep up changing the subject!

extreme BF

jaime i jusst think the topic of bf'ing can be explosive. i didn't want anyone to think that I was being provocative. it was more about feeling a bit down about no more kids, and this person and her endless banging on. i was just a bit worried that it would be misinterpreted. thankfully, people have understood what I was trying to get my head roud

Tell her. Say, "I have a lot of sadness around not being able to have another child. I'd be really grateful if we could talk about subjects other than breast feeding. It hurts my feelings" - really spell it out.

If you don't feel you should have to do this, avoid her and let the friendship slide. If you do say something but she doesn't honour your request, do the same.

This isn't really about bfing. It's about one friend being totally oblivious of another's feelings.

Lemon thats it in a nutshell. Thank you. I think what you have said covers it for me. Disappointed that she hadn't worked it out in a way, I had credited her with a bit more empathy than she possibly has. But I was afraid of being too harsh but then I must be more honest about how I feel. My feelings do matter and I should feel confident enough to voice them.

Japonica Glad to have helped a little bit.

Yes, your feelings matter and you have every right to voice them. Your friend sounds a bit inaccessible, in her bfing bubble. I hope she can hear you when you do let her know.

To be honest reading between the lines from what you say, she sounds very self-centred and my guess is if it wasn't breast feeding it would be something else. Maybe you are getting tired of her for reasons unrelated to your sensitivities on this subject. Someone who only talks about breast feeding sounds dull beyond belief tbh and I think you would be quite reasonable to dump anyone that dull based on that alone, regardless of your own perfectly valid sensitivities. The fact that she thinks it appropriate to bang on about something like this without it crossing her mind that it might be tactless suggests she is not only dull but very selfish. I think you need to ask yourself some fairly searching questions about why she is a friend at all.

She is a very needy person, if that makes sense. she needs to be needed but does not give much in any real sense. i think i am sick of giving and not receiving when circumstances demand it. if anything is about her, then it is to the exclusion of everything else. not sure what will happen to her when the bf comes to its natural end, though sure she will have something else to do.
she is doing counselling at themoment....it did make me roll my eyes a bit. she is not a listener