Bearbehind - oh sod off.
There were complications with my last operation, which he wasn't at all bothered by, and I ended up coming home a day later than was thought. I'm a single mum, so that meant he was with my parents all day, which hadn't been the plan. I've been visiting different hospitals for the last six months, which he is aware of, because again, he either has to come with me, or someone else has to look after him when they wouldn't normally. He also knows that I am poorly because my pain is to the point I cannot get on the floor / cannot have him on my lap for stories / anything else we would normally do.
I am in no way projecting my anxiety, he is anxious. He told me he was anxious about it, and told me exactly what he is worried about - logical three year old concerns. He is very articulate, and I have always focused on allowing him to express himself. We've talked about what's worrying him, and gone over exactly what is going to happen whilst I am in hospital and when I get home.
He is going to sleep normally, and then wanting to come in and cuddle at 2am. We used to co-sleep, then he started preferring his own space, so if he is now coming back into me, I know it's for a reason.
And for you information, I'm fucking terrified. They will be doing anything between blasting away endo to a hysterectomy, and I won't know until I wake up. In front of DS, I've been very practical, and made it an exciting adventure to Nanny's house, to the point that he said to me this morning, "Can you have your operation today please, Mummy, I want to go to my sleepover!". So I'm not projecting. But he is three, and a very aware three, both because he is bright, and because he has seen my heath deteriorating. He wants me to have the operation so we can play again, but is worried because it didn't go to plan last time. Which is entirely understandable.
So you can fuck right off.