Thank you to everyone who has replied, thank you for taking the time to comment.
Turnip I feel for you - I know exactly what you mean when you say dry but no sober :(
I completely understand being addicted to pain relief when you have a painful condition, it's a no brainier!! You have been prescribed a med to help you go about life, and it cannot be easy but what choices are there for you :(
I have calmed down, she has been on cocodamol for yrs over the counter, but when I saw the new dose n googled it I kinda went into overdrive! 8 mg to 30mg seemed an a huge jump to me! I know she not taking it for pain relief tho- she says for bowels!! Her appearance is actually changing too, her body seems to have gone barrel shaped n her face looks so bloated, she missed so much work that they are pissed off her, she says she is "technically disabled" but puts this all down too her toilet problems and expects her work to accommodate her, but the may suspect her issues too.
She has come off the booze a few times and gone back to it . . Always with I can do what everyone else does attitude but it always ends in disaster!
Sorry folks I prob sound a bit mixed up, I am about it all tbh! When I found out for sure she was drinking again I vowed I was not going to get caught up in it all again, it takes over your family and (finally) having new baby and good settled happy family life I don't want it marred by getting caught up in her problems again!
I sound like horrible sister but I do love her dearly, i can't even bring the subject up because I'm scared she'll alienate me n I'm really the only person she has close.
Oh she has had counselling but again it was about all our "family issues" not her issues.
Again thank you all for sharing, it means a lot to me right now x x x x x