AIBU to feel so down that my boss is pregnant?

[pizzaqueen]

My first AIBU here goes...

My manager at work told me today that's she's pregnant, I said congratulations blah blah blah. But ever since I've been feeling really down and generally crap about it. This is her 2nd, her first is just over a year old. My DS is 2 1/2. I have a great relationship with my boss and don't know how I will cope with work when she goes on mat leave as she's a great support and guidance professionally.

I've been wanting another baby for a while now but we just haven't been able to afford another baby because of childcare costs (can't afford to give up work either). But now that my DS will get his funded hours soon we've decided to start TTC and I'm getting my implant out next week.

I just feel I can't be happy for her news, I makes me want to scream 'It should be me!!!' I feel like such a horrible person I just want another baby so badly, a lot of my friends had second babies recently and although I was really happy for them it just made me even more sad we've had to put it off.

I know I am probably being unreasonable but just can't shake this resentful feeling. I wish it was me with such happy news.

Yes, I'm afraid YABU. And I know exactly how you feel (although not my boss - he's not pg).

Here's hoping it will soon be you too :)

I don't really understand the obsession on mn with having children less than two years apart - I think the age gap that you will have if you conceive in the next few months will be perfect... 3-4 years apart is good imo as the children aren't on top of each other or so easily compared to each other.

YABU but understandably so.

Yabu

But you're starting TTC for another, so it will be you soon, won't it?

In the meantime, just enjoy the DC you have and be happy for your boss