Background. We have a 7 yr old DS. After I had our DS, I had very bad PND which took years to improve and to be honest still have my bad days. My DH found the whole baby years the worst of his life- they were mine too! We both agreed no more kids. ever.
A couple of months ago I came off the pill as it didnt suit me and I'd had enough. Told DH, he had no problem with this and understood and he also understood we would have to find a different contraception.
Since coming off the pill I feel SO much better in myself, much calmer, less moody, happier, sex drive through the roof.... all good stuff.
However Ive realised that I want a baby. Its all I think about. This has only started (I think) since coming off the pill. This is sudden and a total turn around. Since DH and I have had conversations about how to sort contraception, I have spoken to DH about how I feel. He is shocked and in no way understands. He is 99% sure he does NOT want anymore. (I should add that we are using withdrawal method as he wont use condoms)
DH refuses to outright say no to me and to get the snip as he feels this is agaist my wishes and would be wrong, but I feel by not saying a flay no, there is hope but Im 34 and time is not on my side.
I cant explain my change in heart, I just feel ready! I feel I could cope and would put things in place with gp to protect agaist PND etc. I feel I can enjoy it this time. DH even blamed work at one point which I think is total rubbish, his business partner has three kids, a mate of his has three kids in same business. Im devastated. I have to live with this now.
After discussing last night I was upset and went and sat in bedroom, I felt numb. DH came in hugged me and said " dont get upset, you have nothing to be upset about" . sorry so long and ramble any thoughts welcome.