My closest female friends - 4 out of 6 - are in terrible relationships but without fail for years I'm always, always there.
Last year I made the error of dating a mutual friend. He was emotionally and (rarely) physically abusive; he cheated on me with his ex repeatedly and she on ce tried to physically hurt me. At the time I offered to walk away if there was unfinished business but he insisted no. Total lies, all the while screaming at me now and then that I'm a dirty tart, easy shag, slut.. I've never had a One night night stand. He broke me down to the point that I said no and he threatened to leave me so I let him carry on, all the while crying, hating myself, hating everything. My mum died when I was young and he told me my dad should have instead, then I wouldn't be such a manipulative bitch or so damaged. I had an abortion (red flags about him, still cry about it, still hate myself) and he text my father to tell him, just to hurt me.
I recently moved back to my home town briefly and he's done all he can to ruin me. He's turned two groups of friends against me, tonight he's at a party with all my oldest friends, the ones i supported regardless because i believe in loyalty, because he's lied so well (in public he's an absolute darling) that they either chose him or don't believe me, although I only told 2 people because I didn't want to cause him trouble or think of it.
Worst of all, I own a house and it is my tenant who (I thought was a friend) who is holding this party. I. My bloody house that I worked so hard for, but of course legally i cannot tell him who to invite or not.
On top of this I found out an hour ago ive lost my job.
I feel that my friends don't care, I've lost the job I dote on and put 14 hour days at least into. I feel like I'm falling to pieces.
Sorry so long