To think 2013 can get to..

[Januarymadness]

Fuck already.....

The fucking boiler has gone, relationship issues, serious health scare, work is being stressful and think my daugther is on route to an aspie diagnosis and we are a whole 22 days in.

I repeat. This year can get. To. fuck.

Oh and ncing regular. Naice ham, supersoakers blah de blah de bloody blah. That is all.

I'm with you. 2013 can fuck off. I thought 2012 was bad

Feel free to wollow a bit. I certainly am tonight. Not really like me but if I dont have a proper whinge and admit that its all getting a bit too much I am going to explode.

Seriously? I cant get anyone on the whole of mumsnet to wallow with me a little bit? That takes the biscuit (like that jammy dodger down there). Hmm maybeI need to find the biscuits. That may be my only hope...

OK.

I am wallowing, though I won't go into the whys and wherefores. Hope things improve for you soon.

Thanks. I hope they get better for you too.

I have realised I need to say this somewhere just to get it out so here goes.

I want a second child. All the things that have gone wrong this year mean that is unlikely to happen and it sucks. I am grateful for what I have and feel guilty that the thought of not having another child is so upsetting. I feel like I am wrong to be down about it as it is like sayong dh and dd arent enough.

Ha. Well, I have been TTC number one for three years and have just failed again. Have just had treatment put on hold again.

Fertility top trumps? I definitely win.

Infertility rather.

Indeed you do. That really does suck. My dd is a miracle baby. I thought I was infertile and she happened and I am so grateful I know how lucky I am in that respect. As it turns out I may not have been infertile back then but I probably am now.

Hope you get your miracle too.

It all sucks. Sorry if I seem ill humoured.

There's loads more. How long have you got?

Not at all. There is other stuff with me too.

Fertility is the hardest thing isnt it. It should all be so easy. Grow up, have a couple of kids, lead a good life. Except it isnt easy. There are fertility problems all over my mums side of family. I hope we are all good people, doing everything how society tells us we should. Stable relationships, good jobs, good education, mortgage but children are bloody hard fought for and money is tight. Too tight.

Will join you. Crippling depression seems to be rearing its head again, relationship probs, not getting on with the people I live with, university is really boring, no chance of ever getting a mortgage ever.

On the plus side, I definitely don't want children, so at least I don't need to deal with that.

I'm in. Fucking boiler gone here too.

We only moved at the end of last year. I asked about boiler servicing. I asked about a bit of blown plaster on the wall. Serviced and plaster was a leak that had been fixed. 5 gas intallers later all have seen boiler and said it is safe. Till yesterday that is when they say plaster is a leaking flue which insurance wont cover. Its dangerous. Need complete system replacement which will cost us all the savings we have.

No money means we cant try for a baby. Last week diagnosed with pcos and a fibroid. Both of which will get worse with age so cant afford another child yet. Cant have another child when we save up as saving money will take years.

Buggering bolox.

Tbf husband is trying but communication not a strong point.