To see less of someone in order to preserve my self esteem

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I think this may make me sound nuts but here goes...
One of my resolutions (I know, I know) is to improve my self esteem/self acceptance. In order to help with this I have decided to see less of a friend that I do really like but who, through no fault of her own, makes my resolution harder. Dh and I are good friends with her and her dp, through DH's job. She's very lovely and works hard to please everyone etc but I've realised that I am quite often 'faking it' in their company. I'm not like that, no energy for it, and I also find myself swearing less and pretending to find things funny, and generally holding back on my sarcasm and 'me' really.
god I am bu aren't I?? Dh is angry that I don't want to see her as much as he doesn't get it but I just need time to accept that I'm not like that and that that's ok. Am I making any sense?

Oh wow, thanks OP! I'm usually just a lurker, so am especially pleased and grateful for your positive feedback on my post .

I can actually totally relate to what you are saying about accepting that it is ok to not be like her, since I'm struggling with something a bit similar. There is this mum in my neighbourhood and nursery who is very lovely, charming, polite, friendly, always smiles, always dressed neatly and elegantly, makes big effort with LOTS of people and seems to be a passionate networker. Whenever I have spoken to her, I feel a bit inadequate, because I just simply can't be as patient with the children, kind to people, immaculately dressed, smiley, positive, and disciplined as her.
Unlike you, I don't have to socialise with her as a couple and there are no work connections involved, which makes things easier. But I have to keep reminding myself that people are different, and that I actually don't want to be a swan (seemingly calm and elegant above water, frantically paddling under the water), well, not that I ever could be, but that I don't want to be real friends with swans, so why should I want to be one?!

It's just chronic isn't it?!? But I can so relate, maybe one day we will both achieve 'inner peace'