To want to run away to beach in Asia

[rainbowrosie]

I have taken refuge in my bed typing under the covers hiding
Full of self pity - I just don't want to cook & host Xmas day
My fiancé works relief shifts mostly wkends - so I solo parent a lot after working durlng the week at a demanding job
So I am tired I have 2 preschool kids & no family to help at wkends
Now this Xmas John is working 6 days right across mad this Thursday to next Wednesday 12hr day shifts
The kids have chick pox
This wkend will be the 4th in a row I have solo parented & then worked
The online booking shopping slots are full so I am struggling with when to get to shops & get food
And I have small Christmas lunch of both sets grandparents (3 adults) and kids to cook for
Rationally I know everyone will help & grandparents are elderly
& it's the spirit of Christmas
But emotionally my response is that of petulant teenager
& I have fallen out with John as I want to cancel Xmas lunch & just go free form & not "host"
It's very grinch behaviour
What do I do to access energy & enthusiasm
Jingle jingle

Poor you, sounds too much for you to manage with the dc being ill.

Can dp do the food shopping on his way home from work on Saturday? I know he will have just finished a 12 hour shift but I have done that and know it is possible!
You are doing longer shifts at the moment so he should step up.

Thanks kahlua - yes think night shop might be the way forward
I bummed as I would love to feel festive for big social gathering with girlfriends on Thursday which I think will offer stress relief & hope wine & a whinge will alleviate my cold! :)
It's constantly surprises me how much hard work it is & sometimes I just get floored with the solo parenting
However all will be ok your name is conjuring up "white Russian " cocktails so I think a good night out if domestic environment