To want to forget, not remember?

[mmmerangue]

Today is the anniversary of the death of a guy who bullied me at School.

Every year, my facebook becomes flooded with messages of remembrance and I just get as really strong urge to delete everyone who mentions him. We went to a pretty small country school and lots of our friends are mutual, perhaps from different times in our lives, but he was absolutely awful to me through most of primary and secondary school.

I feel like I should be able to let it go seeing as I'm here and he's not. But hearing people go on about what a stand-up guy he was and how much they miss him, really hurts me, still.

He was in a horrific car crash with another local boy who I have no strong feelings for in either direction, it was one of those avoidable accidents caused by going too fast on small country roads. IE they did it to them selves.

I feel terrible every year, but I just want people to SHUT UP about him.

Delete fb?

SirBoobAlot

Yup, the dad arrived to tell me off and probably other things as well if he could've gotten away with it.

To this day they are still not a nice faily.

Bloody hell. :(

Thanks people, I have had a lovely day at my mums for Sunday dinner ignoring facebook.

The stuff from school doesn't bother me any more, as someone asked, I don't need counselling for it. It's all in the past bar this yearly reminder.

I thought a few weeks ago that it must be almost time for this to come around again but I didn't know the exact date. It always catches me by surprise! I would never dream of telling people that they shouldn't remember him well just because I don't.

Just nice to know that I am not expected to feel as bad for him as everyone else does. Like a lot of the people who bullied me at school did, he never got the chance to grow up and become a nicer person. I never got a chance to forgive him (mentally) like I have some others who have grown up and changed.

In future Nov 4th will be a social-media free day I think.

Thanks for the support!