how can any one walk out on a child/baby (reason)

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I have not had an easy start to being a mother, I always knew there was something not right about DC1 (ASD) and DC2 had colic and cried and cried and cried.

there is many of times i felt like walking out of the door, i have had PND on both DC. I am not the worlds perfect mum far from it. There is something god knows what that makes me stay.

I wish i was one of those mums, that can work, have a clean home, cook fresh meals and be wonder woman

Aibu to wonder when it get easy, when does it get to the point when all this juggling gets to the point when every day is not an up hill stuggle

My daughter has ASD so I know how very, very difficult it is. It's finally easier for me as she's just moved out with her boyfriend

Op here, thanks for all the support last night after a dew months I finally got some sleep last night and woke up feeling a lot better.

Pleased you're feeling better op.
Nobody is perfect. It's bloody hard but really it does get better and one day you'll look back on these years and marvel at how you managed.

You really need to cut yourself some slack as you sound like you have a lot on your plate when my dc's were little as long as we were fed all fed and alive at the end of the day I counted that as a success.

You don't have to be a perfect mother to be the perfect mother for yourchildren. They don't need wonderwoman, they need you. You sound great and they are lucky to have you.