I honestly feel like getting on a train, marching up to number ten, barging in and kicking them in the shin!!!
I am desperately trying to get a job, i am in the process of trying to secure a fellowship which will get me back on my career ladder. It would also allow me to do some real, useful biomedical research that will make a real difference to the condition i would be researching, it has the potential to save lives. The trust i am applying too are really impressed with my draft proposal and feel that on top of it being a good project, I will make a good fellow. This is people telling me that i will be a good scientist after i thought i was going to have to turn my back on my career for good.
BUT my application has had to be put on hold because of difficulties that the trust are having securing funding for Biomedical Research. :( What it comes down to, there is just no money and companies/organisations are not able/interested in funding medical research. There is no investment in the sciences in this country - it was bad before this crock of shit government came into power and starting making swathing cuts left right and centre. Leaving research as a very unsound investment.
I have seen friends made redundant because the major pharma companies are taking their money elsewhere, I have seen academics walk away from their research careers because they have to have job security and there simply isn't any - without academic research, the pharma companies will have no backbone on which to base their clinical research.
On a personal level, i am probably going to give up on science, i don't have any choice, I am too long out of the game to step back in even at a tech level. I worked myself senseless to get a degree and then PhD and i feel that it was all for nothing. Its not because im crap, i have an email in my inbox telling me that i have the potential to be a good fellow on a prestigious fellowship, i have a professor of biology who is keen for me to work with him, but he has no money in his lab, like many of his collegues and peers up and down the country, they have ideas and ongoing projects that are being shelve because there is simply no investment. These projects are not flights of fancy, there is ground breaking, life saving research that is just being filed in the back of filing cabinets because there is no money!
Me? well i just don't know - I know i need to keep positive and keep applying for jobs but im either over qualified and no one will take me seriously, or i don't have the experience to compete in such a competitive market.
So, thanks Dave, thanks Nick - thanks for nothing!!!
I know its not really the govenrments fault directly that I can't get a job, but i am sick of blaming myself and feeling like shit. I want to contribute, i want to make a difference, i want to pay tax ffs - but i can't and im 