to change my mind?

[onceortwice]

OK, I fear I really AM BU.

I agreed on a nanny share with another mum at my DD's school (nursery).

I don't really NEED the nanny share, but it's helpful, good for DD and good for me to have some childcare (I have no family locally)

She is a lovely nanny, my DD gets on with both her and her other charge very well.

But, I hate not picking my DD up from school (she finishes at 11:30). I'm pacing up and down until I hear everything is OK.

I want to pick her up myself.

But, it's all arranged and I will have messed everyone about.

Why did you agree to this then if there is no problem with you picking your DD up from nursery then?

Yes YABU and no doubt if you pull out now it will be a massive headache for the other mum.

Give yourself time to get used to it.......its a new arrangement so will take time to settle.

Find something else to do other than pacing up and down, take advantage of the time you get.

Because it will be nice for her to play with the other little girl, it will help her settle more at school etc.,

I'm not going to cancel, it's not fair, I'm just finding it harder than I imagined. My DD wouldn't thank me for it anyway. She is such an outgoing little girl and will love the extra play time.

Both my children have started school this year and I am missing them

you know there's no reason why you can't go there, pick up your daughter with the nanny if you want? You're the person paying her so you can really make the arrangements as you see fit. Unless it takes out too much of your day in a way that makes it unfeasible. I've a friend who regularly does the school run with her nanny - she's lovely, they get on well together, and when she's able to do the school run she does (as she's not always working at that time) but she isn't necessarily able to do everything else (getting to take a half hour out of your day to do a pick up is fine, but she still has to get back to work).