Ok, here goes.
I'm 6 months pregnant and we have a lovely 23 month DS and moved to the country last Christmas in a place that needs lots of work on it, part of it is holiday lets, one let is up and running so we manage that together and the main part is needing updating. I'm shattered right now, waking 4-5 times going to the loo a night, either that or it's the pregnancy insomnia and cramps. I always put our DS to bed as DH is doing jobs on house or working for his day job. Plus I do 90% of the cooking getting things batch freezes as I worry about the winter here as people often get cut off when it snows. we're both busy and up until a couple of weeks ago had no 'us' time. I've had to really push to get us out on family days which he now is fully behind but put on hold because he was cutting wood for fuel every spare minute.
I also run my own businesses from home with a new venture taking off next month, so a lot on both our plates. I long for us both to have a break together.
Because so much responsibility for the maintenance work has rested on his shoulders I suggested weeks ago we advertise and get some people in to stay in the holiday let we are doing up rent free in return for 14 hours work a week to help him out. It's worked out and we have 2 great guys coming, one of which is a qualified electrician, this will take.the pressure off DH. They arrive tomorrow.
My husband takes 2 weeks off work, last week and this one, last week he was working on the house sorting out a damp problem that emerged during the winter that was horrendous. this week, when I hoped we'd finally have time together, he invited old friends over and I just don't feel up to it. They are here, the house is full, I'm making tea and washing up after everyone, having to think about meals (we are miles from supermarket etc, need to work everything out)....last night when I went to the loo discovered Twice that the loo seat was peed over :(. They are nice people don't get me wrong but it just feels too much, I wanted a rest. DH said he'd look after them, he did cook last night but all the washing up and now this morning is starting to come to me, so I've just come upstairs.
This is a rant, I am just feeling incredibly pissed off this morning and want to cry, I wanted family time and feel like the only opportunity whilst he's on holiday and has a free week....he's arranged this and it's hijacked.
So AIBU? He works damn hard on the property getting it ready for this winter so we'll be comfortable, he works hard on the holiday let.....I want to be in a better mood but can't snap out of this right now. in a few months we'll have a newborn....no time again. give me a stern talking to so I pull my pants up.