Best friend died recently, suddenly. I was told of her illness before even her own partner knew, I carried that burden of knowledge for about a week before he knew what was happening, it was awful. I spent as much time by her bedside as I could, whilst also supporting her mum and other family members.
A few days after my friend passed away I stayed with her dp and dcs for one night, he got plastered and we talked alot, during the conversation he told me how hed hated my friend in the months previous, how hed thought she was fat and lazy and couldnt be bothered, and although through fb stautes id heard his dicontenment for him to say that to me of all people was truely shocking. During the conversation he also asks if I will go in the funeral car with him.
The following day was not that much better, I witnessed conversations with the dcs that were extremely innapropriate,verging on abusive. I avoided him till the funeral, I couldnt ring and have a conversation with him after everything, especially when everything for me was still so raw.
At the funeral I was accosted by another "friend" of my friend, as I stepped out the funeral car "why were you in the car?">weeks on, it transpires the conversation is about me?!
I feel crap, The person who accosted me about the car was very unhappy about not being mentioned in the euolgy(to the point she made a fb status about how she didnt recieve any recognition), but I DIDNT want to be in it in the first place, in fact I begged the two people responsible for it to not mention me at all, I knew this would happen. I dont feel Ive done anything wrong yet 50 odd people hate me.
is she BU?