To still miss my gran?

[ellathefox]

It's been 5 months since she died and I still really, really miss her. I still cry about her, not every day but a lot. She was such a big part of my life and I still feel utterly devastated. Am I being ridiculous to still be acting this? Is this normal or should I pull myself together?

I was very close to my grandad when I was a child, he was the pillar of the family and i had him on such a pedestal.

He died when I was 15 a few months before my 16th. I had gone off the rails a bit as many teens do. He never saw me pull it back in time to get good gcse grades, or do well at college or graduate from uni.

I miss him every day more so now because he was such and interesting man I would love to have an adult conversation with him

He was one of the only people whose opinion mattered to me and I don't think I'll ever stop missing him.

No, YANBU.

I lost my Uncle 5 and a half years ago and we was really close, like father and daughter as he helped bring me up. It still affects me to this day, and I can't even say his name and mention death in the same sentence. I really can't. It is like something gets stuck in my throat and I can't breathe. I can't even delete his phone number from my phone.

Losing someone you care so much about rocks you to your very core. Expect to still be riding the waves of emotions for quite some time.

I am so sorry for your loss

I hadn't read the whole thread, but talking of dreams, I keep having a very weird recurring one of my Uncle. I am in some strange house alone and the house is surrounded by a load of Tornadoes and I am running around frantic trying to hide. When I get into one room, I turn around and see him sat in the corner. I say see him, but it is like he is there, but isn't really. Anyway, we don't talk. He just smiles at me and all of a sudden I feel this calmness all over and then the Tornadoes disappear.

Very strange. But I take comfort in thinking that although he isn't here in person, he is here in me as he moulded me into the person I am and gave me the strength to deal with situations. And hopefully, he will always be there in spirit to help me along when I am in need.

Well, that is my interpretation of it. Has anyone else had something similar? I have that dream about once/twice a month now, used to be more when they started.

Sorry, I am hijacking aren't I sorry OP.

I lost my grandparents on my fathers side when I was very young. My grandparents on my mums side died when I was about 10.
I'm 27 now and still miss them so much.
I get very jealous of other people who still have grandparents they see.
I spoke to a lady today who had the same name and sirname as my nan and it made me sad

My Nan dies two years ago and I'm still so very sad about it. I could talk to her the way I couldn't always with my mum. She always seemed to be able to put things into perspective and had so many amazing stories. Whenever I smell Palmolive soap or Bisto gravy, I always think of her and smile. I love my Mum so much but my Nan was like my second mum. YANBU XX

Thank you for sharing. My gran was also like a second mum, I could tell her things and she wouldn't go off her head, she would listen to me an try and find a solution. I've never had a recurring dream kaboooom but all 3 have been in my dreams. Always feel very strange when I wake up.

Yanbu. It will probably get easier to deal with as time goes on, sorry to hear that you are hurting.

My dear gran died while I was expecting my first baby, and I was so sad that she didn't get to meet him. years after she died DH and I decided to finally get married, the Saturday at the end of February that year turned out to be gran's birthday, so we married on that date, a lasting family memory of her special day too :)

My DD reminds me a lot of my gran and it is lovely, brings me real comfort sometimes and it is almost like a little secret between her, gran and myself.

honestly , of course you miss her /think off her , i think regularly of my now dead friends and i really miss them,i don" t buy into the "now they are dead and buried" train of thought , my friends are part of my everyday life , dead ? still my friends ,still in my today life !!!!!!!