to want to double-lock the doors and shut the little sod out for the night?

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DS1 (17) went out about 9:30pm... I caught him at the door to remind him we need to be up in the morning to pack and get sorted for a lonnnnnnng drive off on holiday, and to find out what time he'd be back... He said "Not long", I asked "About half ten?", he said "Yeah".

Now it's after 2am and he's not back and he hasn't been in touch and his phone is switched off . I can't settle - I'm bad at sleeping if he's not in and I don't know where he is - and being angry isn't very relaxing. I'm fretting too cos it's ME doing the lonnnnnnnng drive, with no-one else to share it with, so I need my bloody sleep.

I'd like to double-lock the doors and shut him out, but (a) it won't stop me fretting and being cross, (b) if I do get to sleep, he might then wake me at 5am trying to get in and/or (c) he definitely won't then be here in the morning to help with the packing/sorting.

AIBU to want to cut his b*llks off and stuff them down his throat lock him out?!

I'd be raging tbh, did he not take a key with him?

Tapir, yes, he took a key, which is why I'm thinking of double locking the doors! >evil emoticon<

Maryz, yesyesyesyes you are right, I know you are right; but the bit of my brain that controls sleep is not listening to reason. I am not thinking something horrible has happened to him not even now you have planted the thought I am just pissed off that he is playing games, not sticking to agreements, and not thinking that I need sleep before a long drive. He knows I struggle to sleep when I don't know where he is, but basically he thinks that is my problem - he definitely thinks I am U not to be able to sleep sweetly whatever time he gets in and whatever he's up to. And there may be a girl, yes; there have been hints of it.

I would drink myself into a stupor but that's not wise before a long drive, is it?

Oh and yes, he is coming with us, willingly - or at least he has been willing every day during the last week or two while we have been planning it. If he suddenly changes his mind and plays games and messes up our holiday, I will have to kill him.

Well he's in now. He has tiptoed upstairs very quietly. I went to double-check (there's no point being on edge unnecessarily) and he said "Mum, I'm sorry, I was drinking, and I fell asleep, and I just woke up like ten minutes ago and thought shit..." He will no doubt now sleep like a baby... I have just poured myself a whisky...

Thank you for being there in the middle of the night, Mary and Tapir.:) You just about stopped frustration tipping over into madness!

flow I'm just glad he's back in one piece; I would suggest some very loud packing/hoovering/tidying up in the morning but I am an evil mother

I am not half evil enough. I need Evil Mother lessons I think. But I will definitely be waking him in the morning as soon as I am awake enough to deal with his grumpiness!

Glad he's home. The main thing is he's safe.