To run away and join the circus

[icepole]

The new school term starts soon, I will be returning to work full time which I really don't want to do as I hate my job. My Ds will be starting school, I am not convinced he is ready and he cries anytime someone mentions it. My dd,1, will go to nursery full time which I am dreading. I need to go back for financial reasons.

It all feels so shit that running away to join the circus seems more sensible. Except I have no skills although I can do quite a good cartwheel. The other alternative is to buy a scooby doo style van, sell everything and drive around the world solving mysteries as we go.

The second set of options is starting to make more sense than the whole job/school/nursery one.

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Are you a single parent¿

No, dh works away. I see him sat and sun only at the moment.

i'm sorry. it's a very harsh situation. but, some people manage it and you will probably get into a routine.

i fancied the van, too. daughter was then four. the thought of her getting ill in china where i couldn't speak the language and didn't know how to get her back to the uk was enough to put me off. i don't know why i chose china - it would have been just as bad in france...

Oh yes, they never got sick on scooby doo so I never thought of that. It just all seems so pointless suddenly. Like we're being tricked. What's the point? Life is so short.

I am too much of a coward to be so radical really but I feel kind of trapped in some shitty system at the moment, it all seems a bit crazy.