to think I'm not very well

[MrsKeithRichards]

Ds1 is 6 and ds2 is 14 weeks.

I've had depression before but not post natal.

I just don't feel right. I was fine straight after birth, doing school run by day 3 etc. We're 4 weeks into the summer holidays now and I feel I'm losing my grip on it all.

Baby is good, sleeps 11 hours at night, feeds well etc so I really feel I've got nothing to feel bad about. I just can't put my finger on it.

I get angry easily. Ds1,s behaviour is really winding me up and getting me down but everyone around me keeps saying. I'm being too harsh on him. He doesn't listen and I don't have it in me to keep repeating myself. So I shout.

I'm tired but I'm getting my 8 hours a night.

Dh is at work all the time. I have my mum and sisters near by but don't really want to see them and I don't know why.

I can't put my finger on any of it, don't know how to explain. I yah so paranoid about developing pnd first time round and I didn't. Previous depression was before ds1 was born. My mum was hospitalized with pnd when she had my sister. No one talks about that, it was 30 years ago. I don't even know if that's what is up with me.

I scored 15 - I had ds 11 years ago!

I scored 27 when I had PND so I suppose it's an improvement.

I scored 16, I'm not surprised though

I scored 7 when the health visitor done it.

I just scored 15 being honest this time.

Just phoned, got anappointment for 2 weeks on Friday.

Glad you've got an appointment (shame it's 2 weeks away!).

I hope you get some support. You sound like a lovely mum.

Well done for ringing :)

Two weeks, that's madness! Could you ring the surgery and ask to speak to someone to see if you should be seen earlier?

Ring at 8am - that's usually when they release the 'emergency' appts.

That's too far off, MrsRichards. You need to phone back and insist it's sooner. If you feel you can't, can you ask your husband or mum to do it?

PND is awful but the treatment (for me) was great. Please see your doctor.

I honestly think if you phone in the morning and say it's an emergency - which it is - you will be seen. I always ring first thing and get seen that day - if I leave it till later on in the day I get an appt in 2 weeks!

It does feel ages away but I didn't feel like going into it with the receptionist. She was a bit snippy I don't even know the doctor. God I need a shake. I've done enough shouting for appointments for dh and ds's but just accept rubbish for myself! Just realised I can't even make the one they gave me as the schools are back and it's at drop of time.

I might get dh to phone. That's a good idea.

Ring first thing tomorrow - bet you'll get one.

Doesn't feel like an emergency though!

If it was a proper emergency you would go to A and E. Doctor's emergency appt should be called 'slightly more urgent than your bog standard appt'

PND is a sneaky bitch .

You can get it years after your baby is born.

It's horrible and sort of gets you when your too busy to notice.
One day I woke up and didn't feel " right" . Sort of like you Op , not being sure of what was wrong , not being able to pinpoint what it was .

Ads helped , a lot.

Go see your gp , the quicker you can get it delt with the quicker you will be feeling more like yourself .
Two weeks is far too long to wait. Tell them it's an emergency and you need to be seen now !

I get like this sometimes. I think I'm not well but then the next day I feel fine and actually guilty for feeling sorry for myself and a bit down.

Being a parent is hard (and you have two!) and being the primary carer is harder than I expected, even DP helps out and does his fair share, your life does change when you become a parent. The sheer reliance on you for everything is overwhelming some days and that is "ok" to feel this way and feel a little 'down' or 'pissed off' about it.

I've always spoke to my DP about how I feel and he says you are allowed to have shit days and good days. I also spoke with my sister and she too said the same, that sometimes that overwhelming feeling of being a parent can make some days feel very hard.

I don't feel I personally have PND but reading some of your posts makes me think I should visit the GP or speak to the HV about how I feel. Something to think about.

Sorry you are having a hard time OP, could you speak to someone in RL prior to your GP app? Perhaps a close friend rather than family.

See that's how it goes for me. Good days make me think the bad days are normal .or because I was tired or busy or something.

My dh is being great although I think he's struggling to see the problem at times.

There is absolutely no harm in talking to a HCP to see what they think. I'm certainly not dismissing PND; sometimes we have really shit days and they make you feel a bit depressed. You can review the day and try and change your outlook the next day.

If I was unable to change my outlook or get myself 'out' of the bad day for longer than a few days, I would seek medical advice.

MN is here for you OP

I really think 2 weeks is too long - I really think you need to see someone this week.

I don't know - if you can't speak to your HV is there someone else there, like the midwife?

Can you call the surgery again and ask to be called today - my surgery does this, they often don't have appointments but you can be put on the triage list and a doctor will call you, and if you need to be seen they will fit you in.

Bloody snippy receptionists or not, I really think you could do with seeing someone.

Keith I hope you're ok and managed to get a dr appointment.