To want a little bit of good luck?

[ohcluttergotme]

Myself & dh bought our house 4 years just before the recession and have a huge mortgage cos out credit wasn't too good. Our house is fairly small but big garden we are not keen gardeners
We have 13 yr old dd & 2.8 yr old ds.

I know I should be thankful for what we have but I am so so so so sick of being skint. I work part-time as a nurse and basically pay the childminder and my dh works full-time as an electrician an basically pays the mortgage.

We struggle every month and I sometimes feel we are just existing and not living our life to the fullest.

I constantly try to tell myself that I am so lucky, I have a loving caring dh can get on my nerves a lot 2 lovely dc sometimes

Am I being unreasonable to just want a little bit of good luck?

Almost identical circumstances to yourself except I work full-time as a nurse.
When I started my training 7 years ago I never thought i'd be in a worse position financially than I was then. However now we have ther house- which is a bit of financial security when things start to pick up (and they will) its just a hard road to travel, scraping by from month to month feeling you have nothing to treat yourself with after working so hard.
I think in these circumstances you learn to be appreciative of the small things in life.

It's so hard futtheshuckup isn't it. I only went part-time 5 weeks ago as was so sick of handing over practically all my salary to my childminder. I'd go to pick ds up at the end of the day and she would have something lovely cooking for tea and I was stressed about how I was going to feed my family. I just felt I was so shattered from full-time work, 2 kids and constantly skint and resentful so decided to drop my hours. We are no better off but I don't feel quite so resentful to childminder now. I did a night-shift at the weekend on the nurse bank, it was pretty shit but if I can manage to do an extra shift every weekend then we may just cover all the bills!

I am much worse off now that I'm married and own my own home, when I was a student nurse 9 years ago, I was living in a lovely flat in town and always had money to get my daughter the things she needed. Now my ds is head to toe in hand me down clothes and there's never money for treats or trips. Although in fairness my ds doesn't seem bothered and is pretty happy but I just think he would be so much happier if we could do nice things at the weekend.

I feel really jealous of people who look from the outside like they have it all but I know that's not a good attitude to have.

We're trying for another baby, which my rational head tells me is crazy as we have no room or money but hey ho sure it will work out or hoping it will and if we do have another baby I'm thinking of giving up nursing for a while to do childminding.

Hope things work out for you & your family