to feel utter guilt and disgust at my fat body when I see people starving to death on the news?

[LoveIsTooHard]

I overeat. I have food. I abuse my body and my inner self via the affects of my overeating.

I am addicted to medicating my emotions with food as an alcoholic does with alcohol.

I need to go back to OA.

AIBU?

You should not feel immediate guilt as both things are out of your control.

People in the world will still - unfortunately - starve despite what you we eat or don't eat.

Have you been to OA before then? Did it work for you in the short term?

What's the point of hating yourself - you are not able to control it because you are addicted (at least that's what OA believes, right?)

So self hatred, guilt - all pointless here. You don't deserve it, you have an eating disorder.

You're not overeating cos your happy, right?

Be kind to yourself, take steps back to OA - on day at a time

I went for one meeting. I need to go back and face the facts also the woman I didn't feel comfortable asking direct personal questions IN MY FACE

Find a different way if it's not for you - but honestly, being so self loathing is not the way to go.

i was going to say to feel gratitude rather than disgust.

im an AA, dont know about OA but AA works.

try a different meeting?

I was advised at the OA that AA meetings can work too as the OA follow the same Big Book.
Would I really be welcome as an overeater at AA? Wouldn't the members find it odd?

i know an OA who comes to our meetings...no one thinks it odd, we have addicts in there as well...i think you will probably be well received.

what area are you in?

West Midlands :)

Do you attend more than one meeting?

bloody hell, outing myself here

3 a week, every week, for life!
its a pleasure actually.

im nowhere near you, but PM me any questions i may be able to help with.
perhaps i could link you with my OA friend?

I have sent you a PM lowercase :) I would love to chat with your friend. Thank you very much for your kind offer x

I have already said I have namechanged squeaky What's wrong with that?

Odd, how? Theseare personal issues that have been whirling around my head for three and a half years squeaky
Please don't spoil the confidence I have gained from here tonight that isnt kind.

Have you read what I posted on your other thread Love? Because just the same goes on this one. I don't mean this to sound unkind, it might, it seems the thing that you are most addicted to is masochism, hating yourself, finding any way you can to say how bad you are. It is in your power to change this, it really is.

Eh? Squeaky I have read your posts here for years and as per you are itching for a fight. I shall not respond to again. Goodnight.

There is no point in beating yourself up over this. It doesn't do anybody any good. I am constantly trying to lose weight. And I give any bits and pieces I clear out to Oxfam so that helps a bit. Even if I could probably ebay them. Please don't feel guilty or bad.

I am trying Eurostar. I have read your response, thank you.

Ah, so you have forgotten that on your FIRST thread of the evening, I took that to be genuine, and reassured you that you were worrying unnecessarily.

By your second thread I did start to wonder if it was a bit attention seeking..

This thread has confirmed that either it is attention seeking or there is a deeper problem, in which case I apologise, but I maintain that as a regular poster you would be very aware that AIBU is not a gentle board and that there are many other parts of MN where you could discuss your problems and not have others wondering if they are real or just for the sake of starting a thread.

Thank you for your kind reply Eurostar

Try and have real counselling if you feel this is an emotional issue. Go to your doctors and be referred for counselling. Treat the mental health problem not just one of its symptoms (overeating). Are you depressed? Just talking about dieting won't do anything.

I am in private herapy Krumbum and some kind poster here is also pointing me in another direction. You are right. Thanks :)