to periodically become morbid and fear death?

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About 350 days of the year I am carefree and feel very confident in making future plans but then the other 15 or so, I just think...SHIT, I'M GOING TO DIE. I COULD GET HIT BY A BUS TOMORROW. OR MURDERED. OR DIE IN MY SLEEP TONIGHT.

Does anyone else have those moments where you start thinking about death? Also does anyone have any stories about death, whether from a religious or atheist perspective?

I think one of the standard responses to this is that you weren't around for a long time before you were born and you won't be around for a long time after your death.

My emotional response to this is more that sometimes I fear death, and mostly I look around and feel that I have accomplished and experienced in life the things I wanted to do, and I have a sense of wholeness (that is probably the wrong word), and I think of death as a rest. So I fear death more when I feel there is something left undone or unfelt.

I get like this, more now than I used to. In fact, I had a bit of a freak out tonight. Interestingly, I think it only happens at night.

I do this every couple of months. I did it a LOT when DS1 was tiny, the anxiety and responsibility of having someone so dependent on me made me think much more deeply about everything.

Agree that it happens much more at night (and keeps me awake...)

It's the great unknown. Going from being to just not being (atheist/humanist) is a total headfuck if you will pardon the expression.

I wish I could see death as a rest...

normal. just normal. awareness of mortality is a shocker. having the responsibility of children brings it home to you. normal.

i thought i was resigned to the whole thing, then daughter had a baby and i realised i'm much more connected to the world than i'd thought.

Sagenod My DS1 is tiny and it is the reason I am awake right now. I didn't realise it was so common to be so suddenly terrified, it just seems irrational, I feel a little better now. :o

Def very very normal. But nobody talks about it in RL!

On the plus side it makes me appreciate being alive so much more :)

All the time, I was actually thinking of maybe seeing a therapist because sometimes the fear of death grips me so much it literally freezes every thought in my brain, the fear of just not existing anymore; no family, friends, dd's, the whole nothingness just threatens to swallow me, it's why I'm jealous of those with a faith, I want a faith. I did also think this was common though?

You'd think, but most people I know are all, "Well I'm not scared because it's inevitable!"

Dunno if it's putting up a front though...

Sometimes I think that too, Why worry about something you have no control of, however you are right, this is literally the only comfort I can give myself as a person with no faith, I also suspect it's why a lot of people find faith near the end, the alternative is just too unbearable, g

What a depressing thread lol! Sorry for the buzz kill all those who have logged on after a few Saturday night sociables :)

God, I'm also like this. I worry about cancer periodically, an leaving my baby and husband, and them having to 'remember' me :-( It's a horrible feeling and the feeling you would miss out on so much is frightening!
You are not alone and other people I know feel this way too.

Definitely very normal - I was very afraid of death as a teenager and I still have moments now when I fear that "nothingness".

Mostly I think it's fear of the actual process of dying - and hoping it's peaceful etc.

And I can't bear listening to news stories about murder or other traumatic deaths - I can't get my head around the terror that the victims must have died in.

You're not the only one, I fear dying and leaving my dc with their idiot father (my exH) and I worry about how I will die, will it hurt, will I be alone etc these thoughts creep up on me from time to time I think that's normal tbh!

I feel like this on and off and like missmalteser I get frozen with fear, I think for me it's the fear of 'That's it forever and ever into infinity' Even though I do believe in reincarnation deep down.
Being separated from my loved ones
It's comforting to know I'm not alone.

Forgot to add, It always gets me when I'm trying to get to sleep at night, These horrible thoughts come into my head and I cant shake them, When I wake up I feel differently!!!

I don't really have much fear of actual death, I am just scared of going in a really painful or scary way. I am scared of having children though, because I know that if I had a little person relying on me I would be a terrified mess... I don't think I'm cut out for reproduction.

I only became like this after I had DS, who will be 10 in September. It's only every now and again as the years have gone on, but the anxiety was crippling at times in his first year. In fact, the thought of double that anxiety was one of the reasons we've put off DC2! I think the fact we don't really have anyone suitable to take care of him, if the worst should happen, is a big factor too.

Fear of death stops you living.

Please don't let it do that to you.

My DH died . I was there when he died and so were our children (not in the room, but nearby) and his family (hospice).

I just want to make the most of whatever time I have left now, and I know he would have wanted me to feel like that.

People are too frightened and threatened to talk about death, or think about it, but it's really simple.

Everyone should make the most of the time they have, and tell people that they love that they love them.

Hello, there's a bunch of us Morbid Maureens on another thread here:

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/1470798-Panic-attacks-about-dying

its just more common that you (or I for that matter) ever thought!