To be awake and quietly fuming

[cerealqueen]

DP went to a gig tonight. left house at 5pm We have. 2 dds, one 3.5, one is six months and is Ill with cough\cold, having a growth spurt so feeding non stop, plus, we have been having a terrible time trying to get her to sleep, she will wake up to to four times after we have settled her for the night. Tonight was same,ended up going to bed with her as I feed her to sleep. I had to get her up with me at one stage while I cooked some food or she would have screamed house down. I am having a shit time frankly (have posted previously ) Even once I go to bed, am up 3/4 times with Dd2, has been like this since birth, am so miserable with sleep deprivation but that is another thread.

Woke at 1.15, house quiet, no DP. go downstairs to check phone, no messages, nothing. holding phone as intend to bring it to bed and send him a where the F* are you text, and looking in bag to get keys to lock front door, manage to phone somebody, as hear voices. Press cancel and check phone and realise have phoned DP, at least he is not lying in a ditch.

Just seen he has updated his Facebook but not once did he text to say how are you getting on or ask after Dd or say he'd be late home.

Home now with his brother in tow who is down to see gig. got a bloody black cab home though we are stony broke.

AIBU to be pissed off not to just get one text saying 'how is it going tonight'? Or even, don't worry, l will be very late?

U r sleep deprived, do so sympathise as it sends u off your head tbh.

Think u r putting your Dcs needs way way above your own, I know we all do that but if it's making u do sleep deprived and making u feel so low then it's not doing them or u any good.

I Presume your ds sleeps well then u need to work on your dd, I understand you want to bf her, I did all of mine for 1 year, but I wasn't a slave to it, I used formula as well aS I needed to go out.

Some people do controlled crying, I found it was just wonderful and saved my sanity. Perhaps when she is better its worth giving a try. Bf. abides sleep through the night mine did.

That should b bf babies can sleep through.

Thanks everybody, DP been great last few dys. i had a major meltdown on Friday and we have agreed to sit down and work out how we can sort out Dd2 and sleep, seems he was getting quite down too, more than he was letting on. we are ok, it's just the world is a dark dark place without enough sleep.
I wen on my hen night, just the drinks bit, and felt like me again. .

Once Dd2 better I think we will attempt more of a scheduled day and some sleep training. Bit wary on one so young but happy to take any recommendations. thanks agin everybody, it was good to get some perspective.

It sounds as though you do need to do something drastic for sleep, I'm so sorry I know how awful it is. I know the sick/dizzy feeling well. Mine sleep fine now (well as well as the average child and I look back and can't believe it was so bad for so long)
Does your older DD sleep? Can you/do you co sleep with the younger one? Can you get a night or more where your DH looks after your older DD, puts her to bed etc while you sit ont he sofa, wtahc TV and feed. Then you go to bed with the baby and he deals with anything the older one needs. Then in the morning,you feed and doze for as long as you can?
It will get better :(