My mother kindly agreed to watch the children for me today and tonight as I have bi-polar and have really, really struggled this week. I feel like the worst mother in the world and am having relationship problems with their father so needed a day to talk to him and sort the house out.
Spent 15 pounds getting there in a taxi this morning with both children 14 months and 3 with highchair and all of the gear for my son. When we arrived and she was slurring her words and generally behaving quite oddly. I got a call from my sister who invited me to a party and I said I'd think about going (without having any real intention of going but I didn't feel like explaining about the depressive period I'm having to my sister at the time).
Upon hearing this my mother totally lost it and accused me, in front of my 4 year old and my partner of dropping the children off so that I could go and get pissed and do drugs. I repeatedly told her I had no intention of going to the party but she wouldn't listen and kept hurling abuse at me. She told me I am a bad mother and a druggy. I've never touched drugs!
My DD has been hysterical about it all day as well as calling me and her father "druggies". She says I have no business being out without my partner so I can have sex with strangers! In front of my DD! We're all out 30 pounds for taxis that we couldn't afford.
Even if my mother was drunk, how could she get drunk when she said these things, how could she get drunk when she knew she was going to be looking after the two children?
She has now proceeded to tell everyone in my family it was all my fault and I've been getting awful text messages all day for no reason at all. My partner was also verbally abused.
I'm so hurt and so livid and I genuinely don't feel like I can ever speak to her again.
Sorry this was so long.