Hello. This is more of an Am I Normal than Am I Unreasonable because I really cannot reason myself into having any more energy. I've tried.
It's also really bloody long because I have typists diahorreah and can't use one word when fifty will do. Sorry.
DS is 1; I'm at home with him 4 days a week and I work in a bakery making bread and cakes and lugging stuff about on the other days.
Routine for At Home Days goes something like this:
DS wakes up around 6ish
Plays and crawls about for a couple of hours while I collapse on the sofa watching The Hoobs
We both fall asleep in front of Fraiser
We both sleep for usually around an hour sometimes 2
Then we'll do stuff. Like cleaning/washing/playing/going out to see friends/baby group bla bla and he goes to bed at around 7ish, though this is unpredictable and often traumatic
(Obviously I do feed and water him in between times too)
Make/eat dinner and fall asleep on the sofa by 21:00; get woken up by DH at 23:00; collapse into bed and carry on sleeping.
Work Days like this:
Wake up DS at 6 (because, obviously, these are always the days he fancies a lie-in)
Get to work at 6:45
Bake stuff; heave crates of baked stuff around; hopefully sell some baked stuff
Get home by 14:30. DS is at nursery down t' road until 17.00.
Sleep from 14:35 until 16:50.
Then as above.
Sundays, when DH and I are home together, I usually end up going up for a nap in the afternoon because I literally cannot keep my eyes open. Today we went for lunch at my grandparents and I slunk away from the table after pudding and set myself up in their amazing old person armchairs that have a remote control where you can tip yourself into any position; I reclined it to its max and fell asleep for the remainder of our visit
. It feels like when I was a teenager and I'd creep off for a crafty fag on family holidays. I am constantly looking for ways to have a secret sleep.
I went to the doctor's last year about this; he diagosed PND (at the time there were other symptoms, like me crying a lot and phoning DH at work telling him he had to come home and dress DH because I literally couldn't do it and I was going back to bed, and some other mad stuff). He put me on anti-depressants which were 'uppers' rather than tranquilisers. I'm still on them but on the weaning process at the moment as the crazy-mist seems to have gone away... But I'm still SO TIRED. Had a blood test last month to check if there's any physical cause and there's not.
So. What I would like to know is, is this NORMAL? Does anyone else feel tired All The Bloody Time? I never used to be like this (pre DS). I worked very long hours in a very stressful job and still went out every weekend and survived on 4 hours sleep a night. I am actually sleeping now more than I ever have and I'm still bloody shattered.
...Anyone?!