to want all the negative shite in my head to stop

[rowaboat]

How do all the positive people manage it? I'm fed up of thinking that anything I do turns to shite!

Well you can either think the glass is half full or half empty

Or take my advice and neck it straight from the bottle

Write it down or type it.

Makes you feel much better and helps you to see how illogical/ unreasonable/ dead right your beliefs are.

'Positive people' often manage to sound that way because they have no choice so (rightly) feel that you have to make the most of what there is, otherwise you'll push people away and diminish what you've got all the more by making it sound so dreary. SWIM?

worral even my bank balance is half empty so no vino in the house

power of thought is exactly it , mine are like water down the plughole pulling me down. need a jump start to set off a new pattern or maybe a jump full stop

Citalopram

It is definitely a matter of training your mind.

Can you think of little things that make you happy and do those? Like, nice clean sheets on the bed, or a bunch of flowers (daffs are only a quid atm, not too bad), or accepting you're going to go to bed early with a magazine today, or a bubble bath? Any little things you enjoy, they're they things you want to focus on.

Just ideas but they work for me. Hope you feel better soon.