I know iabu, but I need you to tell me I am

[MrFunnytheEasterBunny]

Have nc for this as don't want to out my ttc to friends and family!

DH and I have one DS already, we have been ttc number two for about two yrs, and am now on round four of Clomid. My period was due on Sunday, have been regular as clockwork on Clomid, and I had ovulation confirmed on 19th, so I knew to expect it then.

Anyway, my period didn't come on Sunday, but I tested negative on a pregnancy test. I knew I wasn't pregnant or the test would pick it up, but DH has just been going on about it, every time I said anything, his answer was well you don't know yet, you might be pregnant, just wait and see. All fine so far, but I started to hope a little bit that it might be true.

Fast forward to today, I have had to take a day off work as DS has bronchitis and had to go to the docs this morning for antibiotics, had lots of cuddles on the couch with him which I really enjoyed.
Tonight, we were bathing DS and my period started. Cue me in floods of tears and leaving DH to finish the bath as I didn't want DS to see me upset.
I put DS to bed, had a nice cuddle with him, then came downstairs.

DH was getting ready to go out. He is going for a Chinese with some friends from work. That started me off crying again, and this time I was in a proper state, just so upset that we don't seem to be able to have a baby.

DH has now gone out, I didn't actually ask hm outright not to go, but I did say "oh well I will just sit here alone and cry all night", so he knows how I am feeling. He said "oh if you need me just ring me" to which I sobbed "well what will you do, fly back?". He said "no, but ring me anyway".

I know iabu because it is only a bloody period and what the hell could my DH do if he was here anyway, but I am just so upset and really bloody sad :-(

Somebody slap me and tell me to get a grip please.

No Yanbu. I'm expecting my period tomorrow and i know just how you feel. I will be crying into my wine tomorrow night :0(

Oh and I want Chinese but the Chinese don't deliver and DS is in bed.

Waaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh

Try www.just-eat.com they take online payment and deliver, I can't wave a magic wand and sort out the baby thing, but I can't sort the Chinese for you ;0)

Can even. Bloody iPhone.

You're not being unreasonable at all. It must be completely shit for you, and he should have stuck around - not that he could make it less shit, but just so you have some support.

Thanks rogers, just looked but they don't have a chinese on there for my area :-( wishing you more luck than me for tomorrow!

Hassled, thank you. You are right, I just want comfort, and I am pissed off at him but it's not his fault that I came on my period, I know that, but it's his bloody fault he went out when he knew I was in a state!

Been there done that. CLomid is horrible, TTC for DC 2 took us 2 years but we got there in the end but at the time it took over my head and heart.
((((hugs))))

Yanbu. It sucks. Can you find another Chinese that can do take out, or at least run a bath, eat some choc? X

Thanks hobnobs

I've just eaten two creme eggs lol. We live in a really small town, there are two Chinese restaurants but neither deliver and the next town is ten miles away :-(
I love living here except times like this!

Try not to be do downhearted, it took me 2.5 years to fall for my first and I wasn't even trying just not using contraceptive, sometimes you can try to hard and put pressure on yourself.

It will happen.

I remember those crap times! Hormones all over the show cos of the clomid and just the despair....
Men suck at this sort of thing though. You know you are being a bit unreasonable, but you're allowed!!

and chocolate and crap telly!
oh and the month after I reached absolute rock bottom with TTC I got my BFP and we only did it twice and no clomid. So next month may be your lucky month.

I second SpectacularChoice. Two weeks after our first, my XDH said he wanted another. I didn't want another at all but gave in and I said all right we'll have another straightaway to get them both over with together. We kept trying for 3 months with no results (I know it's only 3 months) but as soon as we stopped 'trying', I fell for another - born 14 months after the first. So our advice is to stop trying and just let nature take its course. You've had one so it is possible that this is the reason.

YABU, but it was still a good idea to post here.

It is rubbish for you :(

and and [chocolate emoticon]

Thank you everyone

Can you get a taxi to pick up your chinese? - hope you feel better soon. (it took me and DH 6 yrs and 3 IVFs to have our DD - you will get there x)

Yadnbu. I recently had a very late period and convinced myself I was pregnant and got really quite upset when it came and I wasn't even ttc, in fact it would have been terrible timing.

God know what I would have been like if I was actually ttc

Hormones are everywhere anyway at that to,e of month without that added element of heartbreak.

I really could devour a chicken chowm right now.

Have you any chic as a second best?

Ffs - chow mein and choc

Make that call to your husband and get him to bring you some home...

So understand how you are feeling, took us nearly 2 years to get pregnant and I was on clomid. Don't think the clomid helps as does make you even more emotional. But try and tell yourself you do have every right to feel upset, each month it feels like such a loss. I found sometimes you are best to let yourself wallow in it a bit, have a good cry in the bath and then start again tomorrow. I think it's hard on the dh's to taking to mine he just never knew the best thing to say or do and always felt he was getting it wrong.
I am 24 weeks pregnant with my clomid baby, it is magic stuff fingers crossed for you. Have you talked to yor specialist about raising your dose? 25mg didn't work on me at all but 1st go on 50mg and it worked like a dream.

Thanks for all your comments.

Florin, I ovulate on the dose I am on, just not managed to get pregnant, which is so frustrating!

Going to sneak my DS into bed with me and get an early night so I will be in bed by the time my DHstaggers comes in.

YANBU at all. I have been there and it is very, very upsetting. I would also be sad if DP left me when I was feeling like this. I hope he comes back with something nice for you.