Two weekends ago I was bedridden with a horrible fever and (I think) chest infection. Due to this DD(6) was pretty much left to her own devices though she did stay at EXP's house on the Saturday night.
Last weekend was the first weekend after.Christmas and new year I has to sort the house out (had been away for the entire period coming home on 2nd Jan and back to my ft job on 3rd). So didn't really do anything at the weekend except housework.and chilling out (though spent the Saturday morning taking DD to her swimming class and dance). On the Sunday DD did seem happy with the chilled out day as well.
I've had a stressful week at work and even spoke to my line manager saying that I felt I was overworked (appreciating that where we are we are all overworked and short staffed) but I felt terrible for the people I directly work for as although none of them have ever complained, I felt they deserved better as I couldn't do my best for them individually (and even ended up crying 
). Whilst my line manager was sympathetic and reassured me, it was basically a case of there's nothing that can be done but don't stress about it (although I still do ad I love my job and the people I work for and want to do my best).
After this discussion I was really looking forward to going out after work on Friday with some colleagues and relaxing. It was supposed to be the week that EXP picks DD up after school on Friday until Saturday morning. Well I get a txt on Weds from him saying he has to work until 8pm on Friday so can he have DD on Saturday instead. Yes that's fine. So I make arrangements to see some friends on Saturday instead. I've been feeling really isolated lately and haven't seen anyone outside of work since we came home in the new year.
I then get a text on Friday afternoon from EXP saying he's sorry he's just had his hours, he didn't know but has to work 2-8pm on Saturday so can he see DD next Saturday instead. I am pissed off but nothing I can do. I ask DD if she'd like to go swimming and ice skating on Sunday together as we haven't done anything like that together for ages and also to make up for not seeing her dad. She was really excited and so was I looking forward to having a carefree day with DD.
Last night a friend who I was going to go out with came up with a couple of his mates (i didn't mind as they've all been here before and DD loves then all as she's included in everything). Well they were all hungover and knackered from going on benders the past two nights so weren't much company. They left at 9 to go on to the pub. Slightly upset but I'm not their responsibility and they're free to do as they please. Plus I had ice skating and swimming to look forward to.
Last night DD said she didn't feel well (a cold has been slowly sneaking up on her) so I said we'll see how she feels in the morning. Well she wasn't up at 10 and if we were going to go out we would've need to leave at around 10.45 so I went into her room where she was dozily awale. I asked how she felt and she said she was still 'icky' so I asked if she wanted to go out and she said no. So I put on a Dvd for her and took her some toast and hot chocolate so she can rest as she is quite blocked up.
So I'm sat here stupidly with tears in my eyes at the prospect of another Sunday stuck in the house no doubt doing ironing. I know I sound incredibly selfish.and stupid but I can't help just feeling upset at how this weekend has turned out.