OK, I haven't had a job since last July (which is pretty much the longest I've ever gone without having a job since the age of 13!)
At the moment I am studying at college full time so am not looking for work right now but I'm in the last year of my course and when I finish in June/July, I will have to start looking for work.
The problem is my CV isn't great - a lot of the places I've worked, especially recently, have been very short as in 6 months or less. This is for a variety of reasons, in some cases the hours weren't very compatible with family life, another was too far to travel, a couple of the companies I worked for closed down and so on.
All this is making me really anxious about going back to work because I know my CV doesn't look very good to an employer and I feel like any job I apply for is going to automatically reject me. I feel like if I even try to apply for a decent job, the employer is just going to laugh in my face, like 'why on earth would we hire you'.
I'm not sure why this is. My confidence is very low, partly due to the awful way I was treated in the last job I had - to the extent where I was going home in tears almost every day.
I just wish I didn't feel like this. I wish I was excited to the prospect of having a decent job with decent pay and looking forward to starting my career properly but I don't. I feel scared. I need a way to pull myself together and get a grip because it's going to be my responibility to provide for my family once I leave college (my DH is a carer for our DS) - and I will be the sole earner. I don't have anyone else to fall back on and if I don't sort myself out my family will suffer.
How do I go about getting over myself and getting a decent job?