To be really down about going back to work today?

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Bah humbug. I have been so lucky to have the best holiday with my family. It's the first holiday I've truly enjoyed since DS, because I have recovered from PND and come off my anti-d's. DS behaved brilliantly and DH and I totally got over the stupid bump we were having before Christmas.

Now it's back to normality. And I've got loads of work-related bollocks coming up before Easter. Fucking loads. Stupid courses; you name it, I'm doing it. And dealing with all the office douche bags. Ugh.

I actually cried dropping DS off at nursery. I bet the staff think I'm totally pathetic.

I don't want to go into a downward cycle again. Can anyone help me to think positively? Or just come and whine with me? Sigh.

I can whine with you! Hate my job. Started a new one after maternity leave. Hate it. Only part time. Hate it. Am lucky to have a job that fits with DS.

I just don't get on with my boss. Every evening before I go in it 'what's he gonna have a go about now?'

I work my arse off, I'm never stood round doing nothing but nothings ever good enough. He's not very nice to the staff as a whole but everyone just gets on with it cause we know he sees bar staff as 10 a penny. Am handing in my notice next week.

I feel your pain. Hate going out in the horrible weather instead of snuggling with DS when he's in his PJ's.

You'll get through it. You've obviously come really far. That feeling of coming home in the evening after a long day is the best

YANBU

Oh I feel for you. I'm back next week after 10 months of maternity leave. I'm finding it so hard to leave my dd at the nursery. I had a good old cry the other day. Not sure what I can suggest to make you feel better though. I just want to get through the first few weeks and hope that things will be easier then.
Good luck.

YANBU. I was so anxious about opening my work email inbox for the first time in 2.5 weeks that I had to do it in the kitchen, for some reason, taking the laptop out to the office and doing it there felt too frightening.

I'm focussing on the weekend, and the fact that this is probably going to be the hardest working week of the year to get through and its going to get easier as I get back into it, and it will do for you too, OP.

I like my job & I am long past the stage of doing the teary nursery drop off but it still SUCKS being back at work.

On the plus side; I am pleased I still have a job, it is only a 4 day week, the weather can only get better and ...... I can't think of anything else!

YANBU and I'm sorry but I've nothing positive to inspire you. I'm reading this thread to hopefully pick up something positive to help myself.

I didn't have much time off over Xmas (2 days) so its not a fear of going back after a long break. Works been crap for a few months and I've cried at some point most days. On Sunday I hit the wall. A small incident with SIL has set me on a real down and I've been in bed crying since.
No motivation, feeling anxious and struggling to think of anything as positive.

Horrible feeling.

I feel for you. Im back tomorrow after more than a year's maternity leave and I dont want to go :( Only consolation is that I got to buy lots of new work clothes because Im a fattie who hasn't lost all the baby weight yet and that feeling kinda ruins the whole shopping experience lol

Whenever I start to feel like you do OP I remind myself how lucky I am to have a good job when so many are out of work...

Will post later...

I'm back today after 14 months maternity leave. Can't cheer you up though. I'm miserable about it. Especially as DH keeps telling people it's my decision since he can support us on his wages. Yes, but not pay the debt off. So I look like I'm dying to go back when I'm not.

I'm back today, had to work inbetween Xmas and New Year as im on probation in a new job after being made redundant... We had to put TTC on hold after I lost my job and will need to wait another few weeks before we can start again. All over Xmas all i've felt is how much I want a baby, its our first. All very unfair Although I know I should feel lucky that I found a job straight away..

yabu, i haven't has 1 days hoilday over christmas :(

YANBU

I've worked all over xmas and the new year but its an easy minimum wage job that fits in with the family, I'm not up early and leaving littlies in childcare (dh at home when I work)

look forward to the weekend!