Disclaimer...I do love my kids!
BUT....they fucking broke up from school a whole 8 days before Christmas and last week was bloody awful.
Dd was ok, she's 15, and did her own thing mostly, but refused to spend any time in the same room as me!
Son is 9, and will not fucking leave my side.
He tried to play out but his mates round here were busy with family etc.
Only family we have round here is my parents, both in their 70's.
No body offered to have him over to play, even tho on the Wednesday schools closed for strike action I had his mate over for the afternoon, and his mum had said he could go over there.
But anyway, by the time Xmas day arrived I was tired, stressed and fed up!
Oh finished work on 23rd, went out Xmas eve afternoon for " a few". And has gone to the pub again tonight.
I have always suffered with depression, and I can feel it getting worse as each day progresses.
These 2 weeks have been HELL for me, and by the time they go back to school I'll be fucking suicidal.
If we want to go anywhere dd refuses to come, son creates a fuss, hates shopping, we even thought about Going to the coast today but I knew the grief and moaning we would have had, and dd would have refused point blank, son would have said " I'm not going if she's not going" so I told oh I just couldn't face it,
We played monopoly but son got bored.
He's always bored.
I am so so so miserable. And I can't get out of it, utter misery.
No family to visit.
No friends call to see us.
Roll on 4th jan 