Name change. I have two year old DC. I was very down after the birth, due to various complications with the birth and aftermath, but that seemed to clear up after a few months. I was never diagnosed with PND. Since then I've had a number of spells of feeling very down, the worst of which started a few months ago.
We moved house (for the second time since DC was born) and I also went back to work in a high stress, high hours environment, when previously I was a SAHM. Some days it is a struggle to just get on and behave normally. I wake up every morning feeling awful, a terrible mixture of dread and regret. I have times of feeling ok, but then seem to plunge down again, a bit lower every time.
I just starting thinking that maybe this all relates to PND that has never fully been resolved? Some sites say it can occur up to two years later. Or is just plain old depression? Or none of the above I suppose. I haven't been to GP and don't plan to as I don't want depression on my medical records and don't want to take antidepressants. But maybe this is a bit unreasonable in itself...