to be depressed for NO reason?

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I'm so down at the moment, have been for about a week (this time). I think it might be hormonal (took map last monday).

I'm weepy, having loads of negative thoughts, de-motivated and just want to go back to bed. My house is a state and hasn't had a good clean for over a week. I feel ike such a faliure.

I have been to my gp several times, anti d's do help but once I come off them, I have more bouts of depression/ more severe.

Have you read this? I think it relates everything so well.

Its funny you should say that valium because my legs are aching. Looking forward to be transformed. and thank you.

I feel for you OP. Hope you start to feel better soon.

Always makes me either or or or all three when it's suggested that exercise will make you feel better! How does anyone actually know this because when you're so down the absolute last thing you can make yourself do is go for a bloody walk!

You need to stop coming off the AD's if you are struggling/get worse without them!

Menopausalhaze You have just made me cry, thank you so much. That is what I always think, go for a walk? I can barley do the bare essentials never mind go and friggin' exercise.

I know fab I know. I just convince myself that I don't need them anymore, I've beaten it. I realise now I may never beat the depression, its just part of me. I can only try and keep it under control.

Thanks for the link bertie that is funny and sad all at the same time. I can relate to most of it.

Hey Menopausal, sorry that walks and exercise don't help you, but they do help lots of depressed people. I was only making a suggestion, and I think I did mention that the first walks I managed were very short. And my mum was there with me, so I was lucky. I just didn't want to spiral further downwards- I had been crying so much I was getting on my own nerves! I have also said that the OP should only be doing what she can.

Sorry whatevery, of course it may help lots of people. I just can't summon up the energy to do it.

Acceptance is hard. I had accepted I would be on AD's for life and was okay about it. In the last week or so I have become less accepting and really want to come off them. I just want to be normal.

If you are near me I am happy to help in anyway I can.

I get that. I sat in the corner of my sofa and cried for days before I could do anything. Could barely even sip water. Oh, and I cried through every GP appointment. And even though I'm better now, that cartoon link has made me well up with memories! But you will get better. Xxx

Thanks fab. I know what you mean, but honestly what or who is normal?

FAB, like you I think I should try to be normal without tablets. But then I think, well with the tablets I'm me, and without them I go downhill. It's a dilemma.

My version of normal . It gets tough at times and I hate having to live.

YANBU Depression is an illness like any other and you don't need a reason. You're not useless and you have no reason to feel guilty about anything.

Just a thought though - you might be right about coming off them too soon, the usual advice is take them for at least 6 to 9 months after you've recovered and feeling well to prevent relapse. Its tempting to stop them as soon as you feel better especially if you have side effects but there's a really high chance of a quick relapse if you stop in that time (at least 40%) and some GPs aren't aware of this. After this amount of time you've got a much better chance of coming off them successfully. If you've had several episodes and depending on the severity some recommend 2 years of treatment afterwards to try to prevent it coming back. Hopefully the counselling should help too.

Good luck and hope you feel better really soon!