AIBU to ask GP for anti-depressants?

[FionaBruise]

Would be really grateful of advice as can't see wood for trees at the moment....

I hate my job, boss is a control freak and I'm also in wrong job
Have broken down in tears several times at work before I have chance to get to the bog. This is incredibly humiliating and i feel like a total wet, victimy, twat. Have taken day off today in case broke down again today.
Have tried to speak to boss about how we can work better together and all that jazz (total failure-boss cannot see there is a problem). Have also spoken to boss' boss who said she knows there is a problem with her management skills and that there will be a restructure by end of year and I will get new line manager. But boss' boss then changed her mind last week and said that i must learn to manage manager better and that she will remain my manager.

I'm going all out to find a new job but know it could be another three months at least before I could get one and I don't want to tip over the edge before then.
I'm going to couple's counselling at the moment and there's not really enough space and time to address how low I feel in any depth. Getting my own counsellor as well just seems nuts and self indulgent and too expensive but I feel that I'm a failure to self-medicate my feelings and should just man up in the job.

Fiona, I feel for you. There is nothing worse than working with/for someone who makes the working enviroment so terrible.

You sound as if you are under a tremendous amount of stress at the moment with both work and home life. I would definitely have a word with the GP. AD may or may not be the solution, but sometimes getting everything off your chest will help. Taking AD's is not a failure. It just may be at this time in your life you need a little help.

Plus I recommend you what the film 'Horrible Bosses'. It may temporarily help - just a little light relief.

You wouldn't be unreasonable to ask, since if you're burstign into tears so often, you're clearly not coping. Your GP may suggest other options or may agree that ADs will help you to deal with what is obviously a very stressful time.

Does your couples counsellor see individuals as well? Would he/she be able to have one or two appointments with you to discuss work etc? Not self-indulgent, it's self-preservation.

Thank you very much Mo4. I'm going to get my butt up to see the GP. I'm being unreasonable if i pratt about crying at work and do nothing about it. ha will get film too-- I'm still receptive and proactive about humour so I thank the proverbial lord for that. thanks again.

When I had been off work with depression (also very linked to twat boss), said twat boss sorted out private counselling for me through the company still a twat though
Is that an option?

Luckily in my case, a year into him being there, the big bosses realised they had made a huge mistake, and he was gone not long after :)

Hi mincepie, thanks yes she does see individuals too and I'd love to see her as she's such a great counsellor but I don't think you're allowed to go solo whilst doing the couples stuff lest it ballses up "the dynamic". i'm not certain though so I will ask-thanks for the suggestion.

Urghhhhhhh what a horrible situation to be BUT there are no magic pills that will suddenly make all this ok. Anti D's are for when regardless of the situation you feel you can't cope and you never see joy in anything and can't ever see a light at the end of the tunnel.

I think from what you have posted that you are having a horrible time at work and quite understandably have had a few tears over it. You are doing something proactive to rectify the situation by looking for another job which is great. Tbh I think possible counselling would be a better option, but it wouldn't hurt to have a chat with the GP.

Obviously not a doctor and only going on what you have posted. Hope you get a new job soon!

It is perfectly reasonable to have solo and couple's counselling at the same time - I know people who have done it - worth looking into.

I think it would be a good idea to have a chat with your GP. It may be that ADs are appropriate or they may be able to refer you for counselling. If you are in the UK then there are counsellors available on the NHS and seeing a counsellor by yourself doesn't have to mean more cost. Both times that I have suffered depression I have been able to be referred for free counselling or CBT very quickly.

Rocking-I'm glad your big bosses saw sense finally !! Thanks -yes I saw the work counsellor for a set 5 sessions. It was helpful. Thinking about it I guess actually that preserving my sanity is worth £50 a fortnight. The work counsellor did help me to realise I was in an objectively shitty situation and I know what the action-answer is so perhaps I can view paying for some more 1:1 counselling just as a way of getting extra support over next few months. THank you

Valium, thanks for your perspective. Its interesting I think you're right in that I am seeing it as a magic pill at the moment. And just realised that perhaps the danger might be that if I took them I might feel better and think my job wasn't that bad after all. I'm starting some voluntary work soon that I think will put me in a better frame of mind-as its working more directly with people. Being able to exchange energy with other human beings is what I am craving like a magic pill. THanks

Thanks Gamer, I forgot about the CBT IAPT thing. Good thinking-I'll give it a go.

Right I do feel quite a bit better for your kind posts and IWBU to hang around moaning so I will make appt with GP and finish another application.

THANK YOU