Is anyone still awake?

[atosilis]

I have come in from a lovely night out and made a random comment to my husband about the stupid money paid for packaging for Xmas presents. The story is too long but he couldn't just say " Yes, stupid money". I am personally responsible for the world banking crisis dontcha know. We have had a huge row, I was just passing comment but yahdeyadeya - he is furious.

The thing is that I have cut myself quite badly, not hospital worth, but I am furious that I have hurt myself again.

what did you cut yourself with? I really think if you are having to lie down to stem the bleeding, you need to wake up your husband, and let him help you. Please.. I know you are worried it might upset him, but he can help you. He will want to help you.

Couldn't read and run-I hope you are OK OP. People are awake on here all night if you want to talk x

The bleeding had def stopped, just wide and shallow. Sorry to bother you all but I just needed to know that people were awake and understood. thank you :-)

Agree with others that you should at the very least wake your husband. Also a self harmer here, have finally stopped after cutting myself in similar circumstances to you, still got the horrid scars and so wish I'd had them stitched.

You arent bothering us at all. We are all probably still up for daft reasons.. mine is because my husband is diagonal across the bed, snoring like a warthog, and gripping onto the duvet for dear life.... :)

Do you think you could wake your husband? Do you have DC in the house?

It sounds like you need stitches- please wake your husband and go in to A&E.

I understand there's deep reason for you doing this, and firstly I hope you get yourself some proper help to control it.

But surely you know, YABU? You have cut yourself quite badly. THING IS you know YABU. What do you want? YABU. You know that.

It's NOT your DP/DH's problem, he is not 'a bastard'. Seriously... with an OP like that what do you want?

I am not imune to issues, pain, MH problems, but sorry.. I'm also not tolerant to arsehole posts that boast about it. Forgive me for that. You don't need cuddles from strangers, you're intelligent enough to know that you posted here for the drama, you're shock value SUCKS.

Forgive me. My best mate recently just did it. No drama. No bloody fucking arsing am dram, they're just dead.... no 'cries for help' (your friends would hear if you asked) and missus, you have history, don't you? You can't tolerate a normaL DRUNKEN NIGHT OUT without wanting to win the argument by being stupid can you? The boy who cried wolf got caught, don't be that twat.

If you have a drunken row with your loved one and you then self harm, you need more than mumsnet sweety, seriously.

Call me an insensitive bitch, but OP MUMSNET will not solve your problems and you know it.

Go to hospital. Tell them why. Get the professional help. Surrender to help, take all you can get, or frankly.... from someone who's loved (VERY MUCH) and lost... FUCK off frankly. You know what you're doing, you know why, get help. People die. Its so fucking meaningless, please don't fucking die.... If You're not there yet, seriously.... stop posting shit on here and get yourself some real help.

Sorry if I offend. Absolutely sorry.

Lost connection there....
I have covered it in cotton wool and duck tape.
I am lucky that my blood is like glue anyway. All that blood and the rage hasn't gone, what a waste.

You do need counselling on this, and maybe going to A&E will be the first step to this? Or at the very least, ring the dr on Mon morning?

Of course is hasn't gone. It isn't the solution. It won't help.

Go to A+E.

Then seek better help tomorrow. You need it. You deserve to not feel like this and not to do this to yourself.

Yep aldiwhore, I see your point, not trying to post shit but for a
NANO second, I just collapsed for a bit.

For a second I stumbled.... I did not post for drama, just for the voice saying...
"Ooops,up you get. Silly billy, go home and have a cup of tea"

You are drunk.

The argument happened because you were drunk.

DP argues when he is drunk.

The anger came because you were drunk

Blood doesn't clot properly when you are drunk.

Don't get drunk.

wide awake can't sleep .

Where are you Atosilis, are you at home now?

you seem to have previous self harm knowledge
do you know your own triggers,ability to cut without requiring admission?
if you're distressed enough to be cutting again what are you going to do about triggers and manage that stimulus?

what steps are you taking to maintain yourself safely?are their children to consider?

2 options to consider here

1. you're new to self harm and impulsively this has occurred
2. knowledge/ experience self harm reenacted when distressed

significantly,you need real life,not mums net to get you through this. gp and cmht if necessary. do seek support this is potentially manageable with right help

^I'm also not tolerant to arsehole posts that boast about it. Forgive me for that. You don't need cuddles from strangers, you're intelligent enough to know that you posted here for the drama, you're shock value SUCKS
FUCK off frankly. ^

Boast? Drama? Shock value? Fuck off? Fair play, fucked off.

Altinkum - I'm ok, no worries. No boasting but not worries :-)

? Not boasting, no worries......